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Gasoline and Matches Part-14

Love the classic shell service station sign, and also the cars in general. This is a 10/10 shot.

Gasoline and Matches: A Lyndy Martinez Story, Part-14

Joshua Tree Ca, CA 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: Quick health-related check, does the name Spudz Makenzie mean anything to you? If that’s not ringing any bells, then you’re probably too young so keep reading. If you answered yes—uh oh—it might be time for a shingles vaccine and to schedule that colonoscopy you’ve been putting off.

Lyndy lifted her sunglasses a notch, admiring whimsical peach-colored rock formations emerging from the land like breaching whales turned to stone mid-flight. Surrounding them were the namesake Joshua trees, a fascinating species with twisting limbs tipped by dagger shaped green leaves. Beyond this, high cirrus drifted across a cobalt sky, forming a postcard backdrop.

In her youth she remembered scampering up and down these rock formations like a baby mountain goat. Nary a concern in the world. Or camping under the stars with Kyle, laying side by side and marveling at shooting stars. That was when Lyndy was in her early twenties. But she hadn’t been back to the national park in ages. She missed it.

These days her knees wouldn’t let her be so reckless, particularly with a baby in a sling clutched tight against one’s chest.

Convincing Kyle she needed a night of camping in the desert to feel alive, had been a bit of a bargaining exercise. He seemed skeptical of the sudden plan, wondering about Lyndy’s underlying motives. Especially since she hadn’t mentioned it until after the Labor Day party. But Lyndy assured him she and Jackie were only planning a one-night excursion.

A cozy campfire. A little stargazing, and then back the next day. Simple.

By the look on his face, Kyle knew something was fishy. Nevertheless, following a shrug and a trademark eyeroll, he finally agreed, saying: “Okay, if it’ll make you happy.” After which Lyndy kissed him on the cheek.

Only thing she couldn’t do was convince Kyle to watch the baby, hence the bargaining. He balked at the idea, encouraging Lyndy to take their daughter with her since he had to work. Litigating this any further risked blowing the entire operation, so Lyndy packed up her baby stuff in the Land Rover SUV, nestled Mari in her car seat and headed out east to meet Jackie Cordray. She’d dressed in her “fashionable” mom overalls too.

Mari slept well, cause the big SUV had powerful AC and a cushy highway ride. As soon as it stopped though, the whimpering would follow.

Getting a camping spot was the next issue. Of course, when they arrived nearly all the best National Park spots were taken, including number 9. The fact a girl recently disappeared here hadn’t vexed the occupants. The young couple at the site owned one of those Euro vans with a pop-up camper attachment, not needing all the space the location offered. But this didn’t seem to matter, since they’d paid for the whole thing.  

The campground itself was mostly laid out atop soft sand, making hiking through it with a baby strapped to your chest a bit of a slog. But all along the eastern perimeter stood a curtain of solid pink granite—technically white tank monzogranite. This looming formation provided a scenic backdrop for the most coveted camping spots. For climbers they came with the added benefit of easy access to the bouldering routes.

Tucked among the sprawling formations giving this park its iconic look, were plunging fissures. Some held water, even in dry years. Some pockets sheltered rare plants, providing shade for animals like Bighorns. They weren’t traditional slot canyons, rather they were cracks shaped as the rocks were in the process of cooling. Now filled in partially with sand, they were more like fractures in the formation.

Jackie explained how teams of volunteers spent weeks scouring these, with no evidence of Sabina—not even a fragment of clothing. Given the vastness of the park, the fact that their search was fruitless didn’t mean much. One could spend a lifetime exploring this park. Still, it was strange.

Having been here before Jackie was able to show Lyndy around places they already searched for her daughter. At the intersection with the main road, they lingered. Here beside the entrance to the campground, the shoulder was smooth and graded. Perhaps in darkness, during the early morning hours, Sabina stumbled here. Then what? In a rash decision, she thumbed it, catching a ride with a stranger driving at night? Rash behavior, but plausible.

Though suitable only for rock climbers and goats, Lyndy and Jackie studied the north facing side of the prominence. They spoke of possibilities on foot. Looping back to where they left the SUV next, they found the southern end of the formation tapering off more gently. Here the pinkish slab was sloping mildly enough one could scramble atop without the need for ropes or other climbing equipment. With sturdy hiking shoes and sound footing, Lyndy was easily able to ascend, even with a growing baby mounted to her abdomen.

Jackie picked a route, and sometimes with her wrists supporting her, Lyndy continued trekking to the center spine of the immense formation. She wondered if Sabina had come this way too, hoping for a view of the park. She felt the growing sense of height—a tingling in the extremities—and yet the expanding view, better with every five steps.

Pausing atop the granite backbone, Lyndy relished the breeze on her skin and squinted at the sun. She adjusted her visor, following the nimble Jackie higher, to the northern apex. From there the scenery stretched in all directions, showing the vastness of this desert land and the distant borders of the park.

Of course, not long after, the baby began to whimper.

Bracing on her knees, Lyndy shouted to Jackie: “Wait, I need a break.” She exhaled a defeated sigh. “Mari is crying like always,” muttered the Spitfire.

Lyndy scouted a few yards further for a reasonable place to rest.  As she breathed, many scents were tickling her nose. None indicated a diaper change, thank goodness. Rather, the air smelled like moist dirt. Lifting her sunglasses and perching them in her hair, Lyndy rubbed her eyes. Solution pockets sculpted over centuries by windblown sand, formed bubble-lick spherical voids in the otherwise smooth sloping rock.

Locating a flat section beside the largest of these pockets, Lyndy scraped away pebbles for a place to sit. She untucked Mari from the carrier—baby crying big tears the whole time—and checked her for a poopy diaper anyway. Still dry. Adjusting her weight carefully so as not to tip over, Lyndy took a seat on the level ground, folding her legs in a butterfly position.

She’d been fretting about her life with Kyle all morning. She’d rather be concentrating on helping Jackie, but couldn’t shake an image of that makeup glitter she’d scraped from his work shirt. Lyndy signed again. This didn’t seem an appropriate topic to bring up. Not yet.

Next, Lyndy plucked a squeezable packet of baby food from the front pocket of her overalls. She had a small wooden spoon. The label indicated carrots. With a small wooden spoon, Lyndy attempted to get the baby to eat.

Soon Jackie joined her, dashing back across the spine of the rock, arriving out of breath where Lyndy was sitting. Quietly Jackie gazed off toward the west, where cars were snaking along the main park road. Though neither of them spoke, Mrs. Cordray began to focus on the campground entrance. Above the sound of the crying baby, Lyndy thought she heard the sputtering of a cabover diesel, with a whining turbo atop spinning rotten bearings. That sort of old-fashioned rig would be an odd choice to bring to a national park. While the baby refused food and Lyndy waited—gripping the flimsy spoon—she also began to gaze in the same direction.

It took a moment to process the gravity; her subconscious perceived a threat before she could articulate it. Her chest began tightening. Nearby Jackie fanned herself, sipping from a water bottle and scanning the horizon.

Oddly, three black cars, a cabover diesel Tug and a tow truck were traveling in a row. As this caravan came to the entrance of the campground, the lead vehicle, a black BMW made a hard turn into the access road. The other vehicles followed suit. The next in line also happened to be a BMW, like the one Principal Dalton drove.

Jackie adjusted her stance, bracing against a gust of wind and watching the parade of cars. Lyndy re-capped the baby food. Using one arm to help steady, she rose to a standing position. She still cradled the baby in her other arm.

Lyndy pushed her curly hair back as her heart beat faster and faster. She stood with the wind blowing, squinting in the direction of the bright sun. Mari ceased crying, just as the slow realization was washing over them. Without uttering a word, Lyndy and Jackie watched the cars come to a stop near the Land Rover SUV.

The first BMW in line parked behind the Land Rover, touching the bumper. The driver stepped out. Even from afar, he looked a lot like the bellicose man Sergei. Standing by the door, he bent over reaching for something on the passenger seat. He then retrieved a long black gun; she didn’t need to see up close to presume he was holding a Kalashnikov. Given their last encounter, not surprising he would be hopping mad at his humiliating loss. Even that was a bit of an understatement.

The next to step out was a female, piloting the second BMW. Though impossible to confirm, Lyndy guessed the ID of the woman: Miss Dalton. She was also holding a firearm.

By now, commotion was spreading. Happy campers began crying out, fleeing from the campground in all directions.

As Jackie turned to face her, Lyndy met her gaze.

“How did they know we were here?” questioned Jackie.

Lyndy wondered the same. Still, of all the questions flooding her thoughts, Lyndy felt there was a higher priority one to be answered: “How do we not die today?”

Then a realization clicked in place. The Range Rover SUV; of course they were tracking it. Made sense, as they knew where she lived. Or at least, Miss Dalton did. They’d fixed a tracker on that thing. That’s how they knew she was coming this time. She decided it wasn’t worth wasting time imparting this detail to Jackie.

Crouching as low as possible, Lyndy beckoned Jackie to follow. They scooted across the hump-like formation, while keeping their heads low. More solution pockets were scattered throughout the pink sandstone, like Swiss cheese. In order to avoid these, sometimes it was sufficient to make a small leap, but other times it was necessary for Lyndy to skirt around them. The baby—now fully crying—made it difficult to balance. Not to mention her heart was pounding.

Moving easterly, Lyndy breathed hard. This side of the formation faced away from the parking lot, outward from civilization and to the vast desert.

Jackie had a harder time keeping up than Lyndy hoped, in part due to panicked breathing. Lyndy couldn’t allow herself to lose focus. She tried to recall fine details from each of the paintings Tigerlilly showed her. Thankfully she remembered the crevice in the rocks, a walled slot—and especially the burrow. The features were dim primarily due to the tight slot, but shafts of sunlight penetrated. Though not everything made sense, more and more elements were clicking into place. Plainly, Tigerlilly was never the evil mastermind; in fact, she was doing her best to help Lyndy in the only way she knew how.

At last, The Spitfire located the moist area from the first painting. Though it was desert, a thin layer of green had accumulated here, carpeting the soil a dim shade of olive drab. The dirt supported additional biomass, a mixing of sand, moss and decaying flora. She got the sense during wet years or after rain events like summer squalls, water would pool enough for animals to drink. Indeed, hints of animal tracks crisscrossed the ground. These included the double hoof impressions of desert bighorns. They were onto something.

Dashing while using her elbows to brush aside creosote and cat claw, Lyndy felt the skin on her arms being scratched. But she didn’t dare slow her pace. A few lacerations were nothing compared to what the men hunting them would do.

By now she could hear shouts and hollers. The assailants were beginning to scale the formations. Within minutes, they would overtake the spot where they first spotted her and Jackie. Yet the outline of a plan was forming in Lyndy’s mind. It helped to push down some of the worry and panic. Jackie thrashed behind, trying to keep up.

Ahead, Lyndy sighted the thing she’d been hoping to discover here. From a distance, it looked like a burrow—the kind a fox or perhaps a colony of marmots would dig high on some hillside. Except coming closer, she could see its diameter was larger than any animal like that would require. The burrow was large enough for a mountain lion to sleep, or a small bear to hibernate. Speaking of the latter, there were no bears in these parts. Mountain lions yes.

Plus, Lyndy detected something of greater importance. There were partial imprints of boots. Humans had been here. The reason this thing remained hidden, was precisely because it looked nothing like a cave or a mine entrance. It looked only like an animal den, meaning anyone searching for relics might pass by and never know its true origin. And what hiker wanted to disturb a sleeping mountain lion? Plus, the thing was surrounded in damp soil, and even ferns clung to the sides of the rocks.

Jackie arrived out of breath. Without speaking, Lyndy gestured to the hole.

“That?” Jackie mouthed.

Lyndy nodded. “We’ll have to dig a little.” She mimed a tunneling action with her hands. Being quiet wasn’t so much a protection thing, as it was rather hard to hear above the crying baby.

“With what?”

Lyndy made a frustrated face. “Our hands Jackie. Our hands!”

The Spitfire felt certain this was the entrance to an underground passageway depicted in Tigerlilly’s series of paintings. Crouching down, she started pawing like a kid in a sandbox.

“Here’s what you’re gonna do,” Lyndy commanded. “Jackie, you’ll crawl in first and turn around. Then I’ll pass the baby through to you.”

Jackie shrugged, looking as though she wanted to protest. “But …”

“Or we can die,” said Lyndy. “These are your choices.”


Apple valley, CA 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: Watching a holiday gingerbread building competition on the TV food network, and the names of the people on the screen are like: Mary Sue, Professional Gingerbread Architect. I’m like, “what in the world?”

Perspiration mixing with unknown automotive fluids, trickled slowly from her temples, threatening to cloud her eyesight. A drip or two also touched Debbie’s lips, and though she had them locked tightly together, a sour, burnt taste somehow stung her tongue. The taste affected her nose and she grimaced. It also made her want to sneeze.

While Debbie worked on loosening the transmission, the same chemical brew beaded and pooled across her upper sternum, right between her girls; boob sweat was Debbie’s least favorite type.

She squinted, pressing with every arm muscle fiber she could summon short of tearing a rotator cuff. Until THUNK! The stupid wrench slipped again—an off brand—in the process bashing her knuckles and rounding the corner of a stubborn bolt fastened sometime in the 1950s, and never removed. There were sixteen of these buggers holding the transmission cover in place.

Debbie groaned, too out of breath to utter any sort of profanity. She let both arms fall dramatically to her sides, including her right wrist holding the box-end wrench. Her chest rose and fell, a combination of exhaustion punctuated by pure frustration.

Maybe she’d never leave this place? Maybe it was purgatory? Maybe she died already and didn’t know. These thoughts had crossed Debbie’s mind.

After half a minute’s rest, she felt strong enough to hold out her watch, pressing the little LED button on the digital display to check the time. Half past midnight.

Debbie exhaled, wiping a forearm across her head, sopping up the dirty sweat. Hijole! She knew she was losing an ability to concentrate—the slightest inconvenience burned in her cerebellum.

She also hadn’t eaten a solid meal in over 16 hours; emptiness in Debbie’s stomach had begun taking its toll. It growled and gurgled like an angry hippopotamus. Only a Double-Double and vanilla shake could satisfy this kind of craving. Sadly, the crossed palm trees were impossibly far.

Now that she wasn’t straining so much, an odd repetitive sound tickled her ear drums. It had been monotonous enough to ignore previously. Now it made her curious. It sounded like someone … sweeping? Like someone with a fibrous sorghum broom dusting off a porch.

What the heck?

Squeezing her thighs as a brace, then digging in her heels, Debbie scooted out from beneath the Bronco. Rotating onto her knees, she stood up, yawning into to her hand. Gazing to the house, she observed a bluish glow. A light was on, but how? She’d been told the power was non-existent.

Needing to investigate, Debbie stretched one shoulder across her torso, then the other, remembering what the old geezer had said before disappearing into his cabin for the night. He mentioned a stack of military rations, collecting dust on the service porch. Enticing.

Debbie set aside the crescent wrench, a screwdriver and half-dozen other tools. She rested them atop a cloth blanket, so as not to lose them in the sand. Next, she reached down to pick up the storm lantern. With its flickering yellow lifeline of a flame in one hand, Debbie marched toward the homestead.

At the porch, she saw the hunched over profile of the old man. Miraculously a single outdoor light glowed blue-green from above. It reminded Debbie of a cartoonish alien tractor beam. In his hands, the old man held a broom, busily sweeping away the day’s accumulated sand. Before opening her mouth to speak, Debbie lifted a finger. She had a list of questions cycling through her brain like a tape register, but hesitated, not knowing which to ask first.

The old geezer spoke first: “LADY BUGS!” he grunted.

Debbie blinked, taking a few steps toward the porch. “Uh … what?” 

“Ladybugs,” he grunted again, pointing with the broom. “Whole mess of em.”

The correct response to that didn’t come. After a beat and slow exhale, Debbie shook her head. She then marched up the stairs. “Dude, I didn’t know this old cabin had electricity. I thought the power was cut?”

Holding out one of his wrinkled hands, with a pronounced tremor, the old guy set an index finger against the decayed railing. Brushing his finger across this, he picked up a series of insects. Moving into the light—so near she could smell him—Debbie leaned forward. Indeed, they were ladybugs.

“Oh yeah, they seek out water by smell. They’re licking dew off the railing I bet,” Debbie surmised. “That’s why they’re here. For us, there’s hardly enough to wet our lips, but for them this is a bonanza.”

He gazed at Debbie, with a haze of cataracts across both eyes. “Patty loved ladybugs,” he announced, in a loud, but raspy tone.

“Is that so?” Debbie replied.

He didn’t exactly smile, as his muscles seemed frozen and incapable, but he managed a somewhat friendly grin. “Oh hey, do ya want an MRE?” With his broom, the fellow pointed to a disintegrating, rat-chewed box festooned with military lettering, containing stacked MRE’s. By the flaking label, she could tell they were intended for use during the Gulf War—George Bush numero uno. There were roughly fifty in total. Debbie undid the flaps, letting out a sigh.

Here’s a question: Which would you prefer? A frozen burrito from a gas station, or an MRE. Probably the burrito from a gas station.

Debbie was so hungry, she could eat an MRE.

Raising the lantern over her head to better decipher the printed labels, Debbie began rummaging through the pile. The available flavor choices were pitiful: “Chicken al la King”, widely regarded as the worst of the worst, frequently referred to as chicken a la muerto. Then there was “Cincinnati Chilli”. Gag. Even real Cincinnati Chilli was a gag fest. “Cheese and Veggie omelet”. Gag. They used to call that the “vomulet” for short. “Frankfurters”. Double gag. They called that one the five fingers of death.

“The peperoni pizza ones are the best,” declared the man, shuffling off. “But I already ate those.”

Because of course the halfway edible ones, e.g. peperoni pizza were already taken. “Ay dios mio,” grumbled Debbie, stealing one of Lyndy’s favorite phrases. “We need to fix your stove.”

She perched the lantern on the rail. 

Taking a seat on the front steps, she gazed out at the Desert, resigning herself to Cincinnati Chilli. “Damn you, Cincinnati,” she thought. First the Bengals and now this. These MREs came with a little heating bag.

Gasoline and Matches Part-13

This card has a glossy finish making it a bit hard to scan, however it’s a wonderful view of Frisco in the old days. What strikes me is how many trees there are compared to this same view in 2026.

[Author’s Note: After a short hiatus working on queries for other manuscripts, we’re kicking off the next season of chapters to finish out the Gas & Matches story arc. More to come! -ASC]

Gasoline and Matches: A Lyndy Martinez Story, Part-13

Lake Arrowhead, CA 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: It’s the wee morning hours. I’m tossing in my K-mart sheets, having a hyper-realistic dream where I’m standing at the service counter, scheduling people’s oil changes at Rapid Lube. All these everyday dudes (dads and such) have silly, maniacal grins as they’re speaking to me. Looking up, the entire line is snickering as they whisper back and forth. At first, I can’t determine why til I happen to look down and realize I’m wearing a blouse, a neckerchief, nice boots, but I’ve entirely forgotten pants—both ass cheeks naked to the wind. I immediately start blushing. What’s worse, I forgot underwear too. Apparently, my stressed-out brain thinks I’m so inept, this type of thing could logically happen.

The music CD spinning on the fancy Bose Wave Radio system was titled “Baby Dance Party”, featuring certified Elmo bangers like: “Wheels on the Bus”. Mari Ellis, who naturally possessed good taste, was happily clapping to the music. But only when she wasn’t busy with her wooden bead contraption; shuttling the lifesaver candy beads along the colorful metal wires with her munchkin hands. In either case, Mari Ellis loved barbecues.

And who could complain on a lovely day like this? The first amber leaves of Fall were drifting from the trees, floating and twirling to the thick green lawn. Lyndy was sucking on an Astro-Pop in her favorite checkered sun dress, cause the air temp was a solid 85 degrees and dry. Zipping speedboats were making crisscross patterns of white all across the lake.

Baby Mari was dressed in her Sesame Street onesie, playing on a soft blanket Lyndy had spread on the deck. While gossiping with other moms, The Spitfire was watching her kiddo like a hawk. The railing on the deck wasn’t the most modern design choice, containing gaps Mari could hypothetically squeeze through sideways. Course she wasn’t walking much, nor was the infant a complete Mr. Magoo.

On the irrigated lawn—two flights down from the deck—several neighborhood boys were playing ninja turtles. If she sat up straight in her lounger and lifted her pink sunglasses, Lyndy could just catch sight of Dr. Ellis, engaged in a heated set of badminton with three other gentlemen. Which was good, because it was keeping her boyfriend busy. He was getting sweaty, and from afar she could see a stain down the back of his polo.

Next to her, Helen Mason and a gathering of PTA ladies were seated on the remaining loungers. They were eating burgers, hotdogs and sipping diet cokes.

Lyndy was finding it hard to watch everyone while keeping up with the conversation. Given her recent appearance in the newspaper, she was also a bit anxious about fitting in with this crowd—the ladies who watched Martha Stewart with a notepad. For this reason, she’d wasted an ungodly sum at the hair salon, having her curls perfected and trimmed to a fashionable length.

One woman’s statement ended with, “… so anyways, that’s why I always say women need to have interests and extra-curricular activities not involving their husbands. Your life can’t be all about him.” Other voices chimed in: “Mmm-hmmm”, everyone agreeing with the sentiment.

Lyndy Martinez nodded, “I know, right? Practically moonlighting with all this extra bull shit I’ve got on my plate these days.” Then Lyndy exhaled.

The ladies’ heads turned to The Spitfire, including the sympathetic Helen. Swallowing hard, Lyndy added, “Sorry I meant to say, bull stuff.” She was wondering what to say next that might help explain her meaning.

Daintily, a blonde woman Lyndy only knew as Miriam, wiped her lips. Gazing at Lyndy’s baby, then up at the beautiful lake cabin out of a magazine, she turned to Lyndy and asked: “Like what kinda stuff do you have going on?”

Out of nowhere, a gray mockingbird swooped from the trees, trying to snag a part of a potato chip.

“Bwird! Da bwird!” said Mari, pointing a fat little arm and sounding a lot like the guy on Fantasy Island. Saved by the baby.

Everyone began to laugh. “Oh, how adorable, she talks now?” questioned Miriam.

Lyndy chuckled and smiled, proud of Mari for speaking at such an early age. “Oh yeah, Mari has a lot to say on the subject of birds.”

“Was that her first word?” questioned Miriam. “Bird?”

“Naw, as a matter of fact her first word was fire,” Lyndy explained, taking a sip of diet soda while holding her popsicle away from her dress. Lyndy then sat up, turning sideways to set her feet on the deck. “Been thinking, and I’m not sure if it means anything special for her future, cause technically she’s an Aquarius.”

“Oh, a water baby. This is a wonderful town to raise an Aquarius,” Miriam declared, speaking with some kind of authority on the matter of zodiac signs.

“My kid’s first word was dookie,” said another lady named Grace, blowing a raspberry with her lips. “We were watching an episode of the A-Team.”

Everyone laughed again, including Helen who covered her mouth.

A few minutes later Kyle came dashing up the steps to relieve Lyndy of her duties. They kissed briefly, and then he offered to help watch the baby. The local moms seemed to love talking to Dr. Ellis. He was a bit of a charmer in Lyndy’s experience.

Eyeing the main floor of the cabin, Lyndy offered: “I’ll go make us some cocktails. What would you like?”

“Surprise me,” said Kyle, still catching his breath. The statement felt a bit odd, since in Lyndy’s experience, Dr. Ellis did not enjoy surprises.


Moments later …

On the gold tinted tray from a Marshall’s store, Lyndy arranged four etched tumblers centered on embossed cocktail napkins. In each of these she placed an ice cube, then poured a heaping shot of bourbon.

From the corner of her eye, Lyndy spotted a teenager she’d been hoping to somehow meet at this party. The girl had just been inside to use the powder room, now was heading back out to join her friends. She wore an outfit typical of the nineties: a modest bathing suit top paired with those Britney Spears low-rise jorts, a style which were comically low in the midsection.

This was the exact moment Lyndy had been waiting for.

Knowing Lyndy was watching her, the girl glanced to the kitchen. “Uh, you have a nice home,” muttered the teenager, in a rather monotone voice. Undoing a butterfly clip, the girl casually adjusted her waist length blonde hair, tugging it back into place. At the same time, she was staring at Lyndy.

In a flash, Lyndy recognized the youngster from a photo Jackie possessed, trying to recall her name. Started with an S, and made the kid sound rather privileged.

“Oh hey … uh … Sidney right?”

The girl confirmed with a nod, then made for the sliding door. The other teenagers were having fun, sunning and talking at the dock.

“Sidney, can I get your opinion on something?” Lyndy questioned, running fingers to playfully fluff out her own curls.

Sidney paused mid stride, turning back toward the kitchen. Nervously, she cupped one of her hands over the other. The young girl had one of those suspicious teenager gazes, reading: “Am I in trouble for something?”

Lyndy grinned kindly, trying to put the girl at ease. Atop the kitchen island, Lyndy was still preparing the cocktails, adding a wedge of orange peel, then a cherry for garnish.

“Mustaches on straight dudes—talking like twenty-year old guys. Good or bad thing?”

The question caught the teenager off guard, precisely the effect Lyndy hoped to achieve. It was harder to outsmart a teenager than one might think. In fact, this was the same type of high school chick who used to bully her for being poor, back in the day.

Sidney made a girly laugh. “Oh, I dunno … Miss Martinez,” she answered, as she kept giggling. “Guys my age usually can’t grow a thick mustache. So, it ends up not looking right. And if they can, it sorta makes you look like a time traveler from the seventies.”

“I agree.” Lyndy nodded. “Nailed it.”

The conversation stalled and Sidney began eyeing the deck outside.

“I’d offer you a drink, but I think your mom would know.”

“Yeah, I think so.” Not to mention contributing to the delinquency of a minor.

“Were you by any chance on that all girls camping trip—the Tigerlilly retreat?”

“Yeah, but I’m not supposed to talk about it.”

This had been the answer Lyndy expected. Sidney’s body language showed she really wanted to get away. With the ball of one foot, she began pivoting an ankle side-to-side, drilling an imaginary hole in the floor boards.

Lyndy held up a hand. “Don’t go. I simply … was thinking … perhaps later after dark we could set off a few bottle rockets from the dock. If we launch em directly toward the lake, then we might get away with it.” It wasn’t something to be proud of, but she needed a way to bribe this kid into spilling the beans. Lawyers had gotten to em first, seemingly swearing these families to secrecy. But it made little sense that anything involving a girl’s disappearance could be so worth protecting? If she was going to make any progress at all, someone needed to talk.

The look on the teenage girl’s face read: “Prove it.”

Sliding a hand along the top of the refrigerator, Lyndy clawed without being able to see until her fingers landed upon a bundle of firecrackers straight from Mexico. Checking the slider doors first, Lyndy made sure no one else happened to be looking their direction. As the coast was clear, Lyndy held out her palm revealing the illegal fireworks to the girl.

The girls’ eyes lit up.

“But you gotta answer two questions. First, how did she disappear? And second, what campsite were you at? I need the post number.”

Sidney sniffed, clearly mulling it over.

“Fine. It was Cap Rock, post number 9. It’s a large enough spot to fit three or four tents. And like we said originally, when we awoke the next morning Sabina was missing.” She moved to the door, reaching for the handle on the slider to yank it open. “We’d been teasing her the night before, but … Sabina always got teased. She knew she was different. I just can’t believe it was enough to make her do the unthinkable …” Sidney squeezed her forehead, as if feeling she ought to say more. “I know we’re not supposed to talk, but she really did vanish. Maybe she caught a ride with someone on the road. It really is that simple,” whispered the teenager.

“Who spoke to Sabina last?”

“Definitely Marion was the last. They had a heart to heart; Sabina might have told her the plan. Of anyone in our school, she’s got to be the only one who knows the truth.” With that Sidney shrugged. Tugging on the door handle, she slid it aside.


That night …

Lyndy Life Observation: Sometime in the eighties at the women’s clinic, I’m sitting in a ratty plastic chair filling out a phonebook size stack of forms on a clipboard. In the blank asking about occupation I write: Professional Hula Hoop Instructor. After handing in the paperwork, to my disappointment, no one in the office mentions this comedy gold, not even the doctor.

The second-floor window was cracked, allowing cool mountain air to circulate the stuffy room. Through this inch tall gap Lyndy could hear chirping crickets, ribbiting frogs and the occasional song of a night bird. She needed no reminder of the hour. Kyle lay in bed watching the news. Mari was down for her bedtime hours ago, thankfully sleeping.

Seated at Kyle’s home office desk—where he wrote out paper checks for bills and did their taxes—Lyndy pondered how to start a letter to an estranged friend. She might’ve typed it on the Gateway PC, but those word-processed letters always came out too businesslike.

In light of their recent encounter, this letter needed to be far more personal; which meant a hand written note. The pair exchanged hardly a cordial greeting in five years—ever since the wedding incident soured their relationship.

Switching on the yellow desk lamp, Lyndy picked up a pen while smoothing a clean sheet of stationary. Beside this blank page rested the torn paper scrap representing part of a map. She hoped Rita could help explain this clue. Wobbling the pen between her finger and thumb, Lyndy sighed in frustration. She leaned back in the swivel chair, observing the baby monitor, its fuzzy black and white screen showing a view of the crib.

A similar peaceful evening in a Colorado mountain town came to mind. She and Rita spent an afternoon ice skating with Rita’s hoity-toity friends. That night after a meal they were alone in her hotel suite, the windows cracked. They’d pushed the twin beds together to be closer. The pair were side by side, gossiping. Out of the blue Rita mentioned if she were ever to have a baby, she’d want to be pregnant at the same time as Lyndy—cause she wanted to experience it with her best friend. When Lyndy thought of that conversation now, it made her cringe. She couldn’t express why.

Lyndy shifted her focus to the blank page, hoping the words would find her at last.

Dear Miss Lovelace… too formal. This needed to be an olive branch carried by a white dove. Dearest Rita? No. Dear Rita …

Rita,

I’m not gifted with words, so I’m gonna cut the usual flowery crap and get straight to the point. We both know I’m no saint. You have every right to be upset with me. Then again, I’m a mom now, and despite outward appearances, motherhood has changed me. In case you’re still wondering what pregnancy is like, I assure you a large part is nursing peculiar ailments you’ve never experienced—like hemorrhoids—while learning about obscure genetic disorders on the internet your child might develop. Sorry to disappoint. There are good aspects too.

It’s not fun for me to write this. I hope you see how sincere I am.

With regard to what happened at the chain grocery, I apologize for what I said in the heat of the moment. You know how I get with my smart-ass mouth. It obviously came from a place of hurt feelings. Says more about me than it does you.

In regard to the infamous wedding weekend in Malibu, my feelings on this matter haven’t changed, nor has my sadness faded with time. In spite of the fact we were drinking, it doesn’t excuse my behavior on that day. For this I apologize again.

Which brings me to a mystery I hope you can solve. I know you love riddles; this is a doozy. Please set our differences aside as I’m helping a woman who has a missing daughter. The girl vanished from J-Tree National Park. This scrap of paper is the only item we recovered from her car. It has some initials and a portion of an underground map—neither I recognize. I’m hoping your combined knowledge of history and archaeology will help clarify things. It’s a small clue, but I fought hard for it. Of anyone I know, you are the best equipped to decipher the origins.

We were once close. Some of the best memories of my life were forged with you. I wish we could turn back the clock and start over. I know I may never be able to make amends, but I’m also hoping one day you find forgiveness in your heart.

Sincerely

L. E. Martinez

Lyndy folded the paper into threes. In the center crease she placed her only clue, which was useless because it lacked context. Sticking out her tongue, she licked the nasty glue on an envelope, addressing the letter to the house across the lake once owned by a famous Hollywood star. Before falling asleep, Lyndy replayed a few of their prior adventures in her head; she couldn’t help cracking a smile.

Gasoline and Matches Part-11

Gasoline and Matches: A Lyndy Martinez Story, Part-11

Lake Arrowhead, CA 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: Behind the counter at the Vanishing Point was a well-loved copy of the board game Smess, and I used to play against lonely dudes like Lt. Col. Rickman, while simultaneously on the clock cocktail waitressing. Cathy did the same. I don’t know which bothered Rickman more. The fact I was a 23-year-old woman, or the fact that it was such a stupid game and he was still unable to beat me.

Helen’s eyes were wide and cheeks flush. She pointed anxiously to the metal bat. “Did … did you manage to scare em off with that?”

“Dios mios,” thought Lyndy. She’d fallen asleep with it balanced on her chest. Obviously, it tumbled off sometime in the wee hours. Landed on the hardwood floor, probably leaving a permanent dent. Thank goodness it wasn’t the Beretta. Now that would be terrifying.

“Uhhhh….” Lyndy always hated to lie, only at this point the truth was even more absurd sounding. “Note to self. I really need to see someone about this narcolepsy.”

Lyndy turned to reassure Helen. “Ummm, you’re right. Yep, I frightened them off. They saw me chasing and the rascals got scared.”

Fanning herself to keep from hyperventilating, Helen’s irregular breathing gradually returned to normal. “Are you … sure you’re, okay?” she asked in a much calmer voice.

“I’m fine,” Lyndy assured, holding out a hand. “Just a little banged up.”

“But … who would do this to you? Why didn’t you call the police?”

After straightening her shirt, Lyndy raced madly around the kitchen island, collecting dirty dishes in her arms to shove into the open dishwasher. She was thinking how to answer, and how best to handle this delicate Helen situation. Cause it would be hard for her to comprehend—even for a sympathetic individual like Helen.

Her concerns ran much deeper than the present situation. She needed friends up here. A mom without friends was a mom without an excuse to get her hair done. Or have a play date. Hillary Clinton once said: “it takes a village.” Wise words. This mountain town certainly qualified, especially if you saw it covered in snow and stretched your definition of “village” to include ski-chalets. Or maybe it was the void of not having a best friend, following the Rita split. Either way she couldn’t run the risk of driving potential friends away.

Helen pointed to the baby. “So then, how is little Maribel? Unharmed, thank goodness?”

Setting the dishes in a heap, Lyndy rushed to the pack-n-play arrangement. Hovering over and breathing a sigh of relief, Lyndy made the sign of the cross. “Yes. Her normal active self. But uh, yeesh. P-U!” Lyndy remarked, pinching her nose. “She needs a changing pronto.” Lyndy exhaled with her arms at her sides. Passing a hand over her totally bare and neglected-ly shaven thighs, she felt a twinge of embarrassment. She literally had nothing on but a tank and thin cotton panties.

Clearing her throat and shifting her perspective back to Helen, Lyndy added, “Ya know, lemme throw some clothes on quick. “Help yerself to a …,” twirling a finger, “a cold Zima if you want.”

Helen nodded, still somewhat in shock.

Alone in the bedroom, Lyndy whipped off her shirt. From the uppermost drawer of the oak dresser, she snatched a pair of sweats and a fresh t-shirt, pulling them on. She threw the bloody clothes in a pile, near the hamper, making a mental note she needed to burn those.

Dashing up the steps, returning to the top floor, Lyndy found Helen crouching near to the pack-n-play, holding out a finger so Maribel could wrap her tiny hands and practice her grip. Mari was smiling ear to ear, her face mesmerized. She adored Helen Mason for some reason.

Bending over the soft webbing, Lyndy scooped Mari in her arms, exclaiming: “Alrighty vanilla bean, the diaper police have caught you red handed! You are being detained.”

Helen chuckled.

Transporting the precious cargo against her chest, Lyndy beckoned Helen to follow her. She led the way to the lower floors of the cabin, careful not to rush the steep knotty pine stairs with a baby in tow.

“Okay Helen, I need to share something with you, but you have got to promise me this secret stays between us. Can I trust you?”

“Mmm-Hmmm,” Helen murmured, trailing Lyndy down the stairs. “Of course.”

At the changing table, Lyndy rested the smiling baby on her back. She undid the sticky tabs on the soiled diaper, prepping the powder and a package of moist wipes. “Helen, you should sit down for this,” warned Lyndy.

Backing up, Helen tested Lyndy’s rocking chair, the only seating in the nursery suitable for an adult. Attracted by the beautiful finish work, Helen traced her fingertips across the smooth side handles. She then studied the animal mobile, suspended above the crib.

Lyndy set her gaze on this charming young woman, with her wavy dye-blonde hairdo and petite frame. She couldn’t have been older than 30 or 31, possessing a certain innocence from this angle. Yet now her cheery countenance had been tempered, replaced by a solemn, thoughtful look in her eyes.

To this day, Lyndy Martinez counted on one hand the circle of women entrusted with her deepest secrets. Even opening up to Catherine Cookson or Rita, had come after a lengthy process of getting to know them. Yet something about Helen—a genuineness—made her seem worthy of trust.

“Can you believe I didn’t change a single diaper until I was forty? Now look at me.” Lyndy chuckled, shifting her attention back on wiping Mari clean with a wet wipe, while she spoke. It made it easier in some ways, not having to look Helen in the eye. “But listen, ever since I was in my teens I’ve had a unique set of … abilities.”

“Okay,” said Helen uneasily, letting Lyndy know she had her attention.

“Some might call it a gift. But I don’t.” Lyndy shrugged, without turning around. She continued wiping Mari clean, but doing so gently to prevent a rash or irritation. “When I find myself in a tense situation—the heat of battle—I take on this alternate persona. It’s called The Spitfire.”

Lyndy paused for a laugh or scoff from Helen. Meantime Mari kept shoving her fingers in her mouth, chewing on them.

“Point is when I’m this other person, it gives me super-human stamina,” continued Lyndy. “More strength and fighting abilities. You might say increased brainpower too.” She sprinkled a dash of the baby powder, rolling the baby side to side to make sure her tiny butt cheeks were lightly coated. “There’s no obvious transition—not outwardly. But when it happens, I can feel it inside. It’s there.”

Lyndy turned, locking eyes with Helen who’d been keeping her hands in her lap. She’d been listening intently.

“That’s how I managed to survive all the crazy circumstances I found myself in, working for Chan’s Bail Bonds. And later, when I was a bodyguard for Rita Lovelace.”

“How did you acquire this gift?” questioned Helen.

“There’s no scientific explanation—if that’s what you mean—other than it seems to run in my family on the Martinez side.” Lyndy paused to fasten the sticky tabs on the fresh diaper. Mari seemed relieved. A huge smile formed on her face as she looked deeply into the brown eyes of her mother. In kind, Lyndy’s heart swelled with joy. “An alternate theory is it may have been passed down to me by a woman named Mabel Dixon. She was the warden at a youth detention center where I was locked up. But we don’t need to get into that.”

Lifting Mari into her arms, Lyndy twirled around, facing Helen.

“The reason I’m telling you this is … well … I’ve been moonlighting as a private investigator since I was in my early twenties. Believe me, I tried putting an end to this life years ago, but I just can’t seem to shake it out of my system. That, and Miss Lovelace keeps sending new clients my way. Used to be only her father would do it, but now her too. Last night, I got in a dust-up cause I needed that black car sitting in the driveway. That’s why I’m bruised. It’s a missing teen’s car actually.”

Lyndy stuffed Mari into a clean onesie, poking each chubby wrist through the sleeve holes one at a time. Once smoothed enough to cover her belly and torso, Lyndy buttoned the flap between her legs.

“Wait. That name sounds familiar.” Helen blinked her eyes, shaking her head. “I thought I heard you say you were a bodyguard for Rita Lovelace—you mean the Rita Lovelace?”

Lyndy nodded yes.

“World-famous model who made the cover of Vogue two times? Wow, I loved her. She was huge! Like, she was a super-model before supermodels were a thing!”

“That’s right.” Lyndy rocked her daughter by swaying her hips side-to-side. Flicking a finger, she spun the mobile for Mari, allowing her to watch and reach out, grasping for the colorful animals.

“Oh my gosh. How did I not know this amazing fact about you?”

Next Helen lowered her chin, gripping the arms while slumping deeper in the chair. Her cheeks drooped and her nose began to twitch, as she sniffed. “Well, to tell the truth, in spite of outward appearances I was mostly unprepared for the trials of motherhood. My own mom did a poor job teaching me anything of value. I knew only what you see on TV. Which is all crap by the way. Also, I once broke up with a nice guy cause I didn’t believe he had enough future earning potential.” She exhaled loudly. “We were genuinely love. And now … now I’m worried I might’ve made the wrong decision. And for what?”

Lyndy rubbed her eyes, not knowing what to say. “Uhmm. Alrighty. Why did you tell me that?”

Helen’s shoulders began to heave. Her voice cracked with heartfelt emotion. “I thought like, it was a bonding moment and we were sharing each other’s secrets?”

“No, it’s not really that kind of moment, Helen. I was telling you all this now so you understood why I appear disheveled, and there’s a strange car in the driveway. By the way, you cannot share any of this prior conversation with your husband. It’s all off limits. Do you understand?”

“Oh, sorry, you’re right,” said Helen, wiping her nose with the back of her palm, getting herself together. “Look at me, I’m a mess too.” She made a hand motion like someone zipping up their lips.

Lyndy nodded to the garage. “Rotten part is, I already searched that damn Jetta twice last night. Which means, I basically kicked the asses of three grifters for nothing.”

Reaching into the tiny key pocket of her yoga pant ensemble, Helen began fishing for something. “Well, that reminds me. I found something strange on the floor of your garage.”

“You did? What?”

“This,” said Helen, holding out a tan piece of paper from a cheaply printed book. The scrap of paper was both torn and hand rolled, like someone had been using it as a makeshift cigarette wrapper. Made sense why she hadn’t seen it in the night, as a cigarette falling out a car wouldn’t have been terribly obvious or unusual.


Wonder Valley, CA 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: Rochelle Bishop auditioned to be a presenter on a popular TV game show. Mind you she was a well-regarded dancer prior to this, and worked off and on as a cocktail waitress in several prominent night clubs. At the end of her audition, the TV producers told her they loved her energy, quick wit and contagious smile. They even said she was probably the best choice for the job, only she was about 50 pounds heavier than the role required. Too bad. As they called “next”, Rochelle stormed off, saying it took every ounce of self-control not to flip all the tables in the room.

Striking a match against the gritty side of a paper matchbox, Debbie Kowalski watched her tiny spark flicker to life. Sheltering the flame from the sundowner breeze, she undid the metal latch of a dusty storm lantern—the kind made of stamped tin—then transferred the tiny orange flame to the cotton wick.

The glass orb, cracked yet mostly intact, did a great job of protecting the wick.

Due to extreme isolation the Wonder Valley homestead wasn’t connected to the grid. A sliver of moon high in the east was lovely, but didn’t suffice as a work light. With twilight fading, Debbie would need this lantern if she wanted to continue the act of mending things. Her ultimate goal: working her way to the lofty triumph of getting one of two non-operating autos to move under their own power. Using scrap plywood and some cinder blocks, Debbie fashioned a work-bench of sorts, which she could sit cross-legged in front of.

Tucked amongst jumbled scrap piles, near to the precious rock collection, was the old geezer’s tool chest. Above her, limbs of two blue palo verde trees had grown interconnected, providing a canopy of sorts spanning the junk patch. From one of the low branches Debbie affixed the lantern. This then was her shop-light.

Placing a fist in front of her mouth, she yawned.

Perhaps one positive about the Mojave sun going down was the heat breaking. With her headache subsiding, having re-hydrated on warm Yoo-Hoo, Debbie felt like she could think clearly again. Though as her senses returned, she wished for a shower so she didn’t have to smell her own sweaty B-O.

For some reason the overly dramatic intro theme to Dallas was stuck on repeat in her head. She didn’t even like the show. Only her mother did. But that tune was an ear-worm. Nothing she could do about it, but a possible cure if she could get a radio working.

She next turned her attention to a small, cheaply made transistor radio liberated from the porch rail of the old geezer’s cabin. It was a Grayco model sold at Woolworth stores, possibly from the late 1950s. Pursing her lips, Debbie blew away cobwebs and the most egregious layer of dust.

Some might call it a warm up—an easy task to get her electrical problem-solving juices flowing again.

With a no-name brand screwdriver, Debbie undid three of the corner screws, allowing her to detach the plastic cover. The back portion snapped off easily, exposing copper coils, transistors, capacitors, diodes and amplifiers. Being an older device, the circuit board was shockingly primitive. Re-positioning it under the glow of the lantern Debbie inspected the parts. She’d anticipated the batteries were oozing their guts out or the tubes were blackened. But an eyeball inspection revealed nothing insurmountable.

Clawing out the 9V battery, she touched the terminals to her moistened lips, testing it. Sure enough—bit of a jolt. Thus, some juice left in it.

The antenna was a ferrite core type, common in those days, wrapped with fifteen or so feet of copper wire strand. Debbie traced the path from the antenna, through the amplifiers, the tuning circuit, to the intermediate stage and lastly to the cone speaker.

After a moment of deep thought she reasoned the cause. The wire feeding the single cone speaker had frayed to nothing, or else a small critter had devoured the insulating material. The connection subsequently shorted against the case clamps and melted away.

Scratching her head, Debbie supposed the best remedy was to harvest some of the fresh copper wire off the antenna coil itself—it had more than enough. She could use this to field repair the severed connection.

Pulling the knobs on the drawers of an old craftsman tool box, she found they wouldn’t budge. Rusted shut. She yanked harder, in hunt for a pair of wire cutters. As it broke loose a sudden eye motion and the head of a reptile poked out at her, causing Debbie to jump back.

All her muscles seized. Having lived damn near half her life out west, she had a healthy fear of pit vipers. Her tiny hairs stood on end and goose bumps formed on her arms.

Funny thing though, the creature seemed rather cordial, tilting its head like a curious bird. If this animal could talk, it would probably sound like Kermit the Frog.

Recovering from a mini-heart attack, Debbie studied it. This creature was no snake, rather a lizard with gecko-eyes and shimmering, moist skin. With a calmer attitude and a little more light, she recognized the species—an unusual one. These were called granite night lizards, and they had some curious abilities.

If one of her university professors saw this—the wacky reptile guy with the white hair whom she could never remember the name of—he’d be excited.

The night lizard shared traits in common with chameleons. If one were patient enough, their glossy scales would literally change color before your eyes, in the course of a minute or two. Thus, the unusual shimmering nature of the skin. The little guy had adapted to the dull brown of the tool bin, which is why he’d been hard to spot.

Cupping her fingers, Debbie encouraged the friendly lizard to walk onto her palm. He did so with halting, bird-like movement while his eyes studied her. Gently, she offered him a magic carpet ride to a nearby crevice in the trees where he could watch her in safety, while she opened and closed the drawers on the tool bin.

The palo verdes had been imported, however it seemed likely the semi-circular cluster of palm trees were native. Their roots ran deep, thirty or forty feet—predating the cabin—tapping into an underground water source. Which meant indigenous peoples had camped here, likely for centuries. Perhaps the lizards had been brought here by one of these ancient desert-dwelling tribes, transported from a habitat hundreds of miles away.

Another surprising characteristic—these lizards gave birth live. Something about that was unsettling in a reptile. Debbie got the willies thinking about a lizard giving birth.

Cringing, she remembered her halfway toxic mother figure—the woman who could watch Dallas and seem to enjoy it. The voice she used when she lectured Debbie that boys simply wouldn’t be interested in a girl who outwitted them in math, chemistry or worse, had superior mechanical abilities when it came to tools. Add to this, Debbie’s looks were nothing to write home about. Though unspoken, her metabolism and chubby features didn’t match whatever expectations her mother had for how she wanted a daughter to look. Her old-fashioned mother warned her that men liked to be the ones who repaired things and balanced the checkbook.

Her advice was to fake like she couldn’t do math. Debbie rolled her eyes as she twisted the fraying copper strands. She snipped it to the correct length with the rusty, but otherwise functional diagonal cutters.

Unfortunately for her mother, Debbie had been born a scientist—a gifted one at that. When once measured, it was discovered her IQ was almost off the charts. And yet being born a female, that didn’t count for much. On days like this Debbie often wondered if her mother was correct about a thing or two.

Tightening down the wire with the screwdriver, she flipped the radio around. Everything should be attached.

Switching it on, she tuned the dial right-to-left to see if any stations were within range. She half expected a religious sermon, or perhaps Spanish language programming. But no such. She heard music, cutting faintly through the noise.

Debbie tuned it again, twisting the silver-white knob. She could hear a sweet thumping guitar rhythm. Next, she twisted the volume knob, recognizing a familiar masculine voice. The voice of a man born to rock. He was so cool, people called him “the boss.”

Debbie couldn’t help strutting her shoulders, and soon thrusting her hips—miming the way Cathy Cookson or Lyndy Martinez would dance together next to the jukebox at the VP. They were both good dancers. That song was fire!

Debbie stood up and did a little whirl. Closing her eyes, she almost forgot how miserable she was. Maybe this was an omen. Men absolutely loved it when Lyndy and Cathy danced at the V-P. And sometimes Debbie would watch them, fantasizing about being cool.

The song was a B-side originally, not commonly played on the radio. Pink Cadillac.

Debbie was wise enough to know there were branches of physics yet to be discovered, and resonant frequencies which bridged the divide between space and time. Which is why, she couldn’t help feeling someone might be sending her a coded message. Who?

Who indeed.

Gasoline and Matches Part-8

I like how there’s a business called Dairy King (as opposed to Dairy Queen) with a two-tone forward control Jeep truck parked in front. Good stuff. -ASC

Gasoline and Matches: A Lyndy Martinez Story, Part-8

Joshua Tree CA, 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: In a packed food court scene near old town Albuquerque, Miss Rita Lovelace came face-to-face with my doppelganger. A woman near the taco stand had my same shade of hair, color eyes, matching body type and facial features. She even had my same manner of stride in her walk. Rita, somewhat dumbfounded, approached the young girl asking, “Lyn? What … are you doing here?” The stranger frowned and hurried away from Rita, thinking she was a crazy person. Smart girl to run away.

As the summer day wore on, skies turned gray and overcast. The air temp remained no less forgiving. Fortunately, the gas-guzzling Land Rover had an excellent AC system, keeping both momma and baby comfy.

Reaching across the dash, Lyndy lowered the volume on the radio.

Her lap supported a ring-bound Thomas Guide, open to the Joshua Tree pages. She’d been flipping between them to get here. Looking over her shoulder, Lyndy double checked the street number on the rusty mailbox, knowing it was an odd time to call on someone—in the middle of dinner—with crickets chirping and the sun already dipping below the horizon.

Checking on the baby, she saw Mari was sleeping soundly.

A north wind blowing hard made it uncomfortable to linger outside, as it carried aloft grains of sand and they were sharp on the skin. All afternoon a river of cumulous clouds floated across the desert sky, taking on a silver sheen from ripples of ice crystals and the fading light. With any luck the clouds might turn pink in a few minutes.

She’d called ahead from a payphone. The impatient fellow who answered claimed the tug was still available, then promptly hung up.

She couldn’t have painted a precise picture of a fellow selling a thirty-year-old aviation support vehicle for $390 in the weekly auto trader, but she had some vague stereotypes in mind. She wasn’t even sure what to say, but in theory it was a straightforward transaction. If it simply idled and drove, it passed the key test. Didn’t need a pink slip since the vehicle was never intended for highway use.

The home of the seller was modest, a single-story mock adobe bungalow, a bit run down with no landscaping. But the lot was huge, over three-quarter-acre, including sheds and a Quonset hut. The rest of the property was surrounded by a healthy forest of Joshua trees, yucca and smoke trees. These native varieties did a good job filling in sandy flats between boulders. For the majority of the year the smoke trees weren’t what you’d call attractive, but following a summer rain produced a lovely lavender colored bloom.

Speaking of attractiveness, Lyndy checked herself in the rearview mirror, wishing she didn’t appear so drained. Four decades on planet Earth, plus a later child birth had subtly begun catching up. As a last-ditch effort she re-applied blush and her purple lipstick, attempting a charming smile. But it didn’t take. Her hair was windblown. The skin on her exposed shoulders looked reddish from heat rash. She’d not been sleeping well, having stress dreams about dance again.

Lyndy flipped the mirror back into position, then shifted her gaze to the house. There were yellow kitchen lights on, plus the flickering of a color television in a small living room area. The man was home.

She hoped he was kind at least.

She’d had about enough of males and their cocky attitudes for one week—exhausted by the situation. On the other hand, one of her specialties came in knowing how to disarm such a gruff, prickly character. At least, back in the day it was.

Reaching to the back seat, she stuffed sleepy Maribel into the baby Bjorn carrier. Then gently, she fastened the Velcro, tightening buckles as the baby’s head drooped. Fortunately, the baby hadn’t seemed hungry, as her supply of food had been thoroughly depleted.

Lyndy exhaled, looping her purse strap over her head, then nudging the driver’s door shut. Since no sane individual wanted to be outside in this wind, she didn’t bother locking the car. She hurried up the driveway with slumped shoulders, along a narrow sidewalk path to the door. The entry had a cheap doorbell buzzer and Lyndy pressed this with her fourth finger.

Whatever she’d expected the seller from the ad to look like, she was 100 percent wrong. So much that she went mute when the door creaked open. They stood there staring at one another like two neighborhood cats sizing each other up.

He was taller than expected, with a slim build but strong looking chest and arms—the kind with noticeable vascularity. He had gray hair, but an ample amount, parted in the middle and cut short. He had a chin with a tiny cleft like a movie star. These were the things she noticed first. But he was also poorly kept, a fact which he seemed to become self-conscious of, realizing Lyndy was more feminine and attractive than he’d assumed.

His eyes studied her face, then her exposed legs, then the baby sleeping against her midsection.

He ran the fingers of his right hand over his chin, feeling stubble. Glancing down at his off-white shirt, amply stained with grease, he suddenly became aware he carried a quarter full wine bottle in his left hand. He looked down over the wine bottle with an expression like: “where did this come from?” and quickly stuffed it into an out of view buffet table.

Lyndy could hear the TV. It was a pro-wrestling broadcast.

Their stunned silence was lasting a unreasonably long time, both knowing somebody had better speak soon. Lyndy figured she should try.

“Uhhh … uhm … I called you earlier about a five-ton Coleman airplane tug for sale,” remarked Lyndy, with a cheery smile. This was one of those statements which when uttered aloud, sounded absurd. She pushed back her bangs, which had been blown into her eyes by the wind, then pointed to the yard. “I probably sound different on the phone, don’t I?”

This seemed to snap the man loose like oil to his joints, and he answered: “Oh gosh, right. You called me?” He cocked his head like a confused border collie, observing the sleeping baby. “Wait, you’re the one who called about the Coleman tug?”

“Yeah,” Lyndy chuckled. “Is it still available?” she said in a joking way, as if it were such a hot commodity people were knocking down this man’s door to get it.

“Of course,” answered the man. “Yes. Still for sale.” His eyes fell upon her classy Land Rover SUV and lingered there. Then he re-focused, back to studying the shape of her torso. Maribel squirmed without opening her eyes, murmuring something in baby speak.

“Is that a …?” He began to ask an obvious question, but realized how silly he might sound asking if Lyndy possessed a real baby. He shook off the thought. “Uh … what I mean is … why don’t you come in,” he offered, in a good-natured way.

“Awe thanks,” said Lyndy. “Sorry I brought my daughter. Not ideal, I know. Couldn’t find a baby sitter at the last minute,” Lyndy explained. She grinned gleefully, feeling somehow energized. “You’re not like a … serial killer, are you? I have mace in the car, but it’s not on my person. Should I double back for it?” She was joking again, but this wasn’t so far-fetched as to be impossible, given the circumstances.

“Only if you talk to my ex-wife,” answered the man, an attempt at humor which landed poorly and she could see a look of “get it together man” on his face.

He gestured to his living room which had a single Laz-Z-Boy recliner—Archie Bunker style—plus a TV tray, positioned four feet from the rabbit ear equipped television set. The only other seat was stacked three foot tall with car magazines and a year’s worth of Playboys. The man ran to his TV, quickly dialing down the volume knob. In the process, he tipped over a stack of VHS cassettes, which from a distance, appeared to have covers of women in bathing suits.

Lyndy waited in his arched entry to the cramped living room space. She began to brush at her ankles nervously, lifting first one heel and then the other.

The tall man bent over, hastily sweeping all the magazines into a basket on the floor, which was also piled high with periodicals and random guy stuff. There were more playboys, mail and other titles of a bachelor nature. “Dang it! My brother left all his magazines here,” he said, as some kind of explanation for the content. “I wasn’t expecting company today.”

Lyndy suppressed a chuckle. Sure.

As he was rapidly cleaning Lyndy noticed a sleeve of tattoos on his arm. They were military style ones with stars and flags. Among these, an intriguing night hawk bird and a crescent moon stood out.

The whole time Lyndy couldn’t stop grinning, massaging the baby’s scalp in front of her and enjoying this escapade. For the time being, she’d forgotten how upset she was at the tow truck guys. In fact, she couldn’t recall having this much fun in a while.

On the seller’s TV tray was a sad looking chicken frozen meal thing, half eaten and the man carried this to his kitchen to get it out of the way.

“I haven’t had a real visitor in a while,” he remarked, clearing his throat. His voice was fresher than his look, sounding like a thirty-year-old when he spoke. But with the creases on his face and his graying hair, he was probably closer to mid-forties.

On the return trip from the kitchen sink, the man became excited and wasn’t watching his feet. He tripped over a box containing coffee cans full of nuts and bolts, and because all he had on his feet were socks, he stubbed his toe badly.

He winced, bending over and muttering a streak of curse words. The man wiped the back of his fingers over his eyes. “Usually, I’m tidier than this.”

This time Lyndy was unable to contain a laugh, which burst forth as a partial snort and uncontrollable bending at the hips.

While still grimacing in pain, the seller gestured to the now uncovered chair stating, “have a seat miss,” through his gritted teeth.

Maribel squirmed again as Lyndy comforted her.

Lyndy pinched the edges of her dress skirt, shimmying the thing an inch or two lower, taking it as far along the thigh as she could get. Next, she sat down, holding her knees together very daintily and smiling. She set her purse across her lap, covering her mouth to block any other impolite giggles. “I didn’t mean to interrupt your evening. I was thinking I could give you the money and you could show me where the vehicle is.” Obviously, he was hetero, cause he was so dang nervous. “I don’t need any help.”

“Oh sure.” The man hopped on one foot to his Lay-z-boy recliner, practically falling into it. Through the doorframe she could see into the kitchen, where a mountain of dishes were piled in the sink.

Lyndy unzipped the top of her purse. “My name is Lyndy by the way,” said Lyndy.

He held out his hand. “Oh right. Whitney Stevens.” He cleared his throat again.

“Is your foot okay?” asked Lyndy. “Cause your sock is turning red.”

“Yeah. It’ll be fine,” Whitney answered, dismissing what must be a painfully stubbed pair of toes. “Lot of people round here, they think it’s funny my name is Whitney. Sometimes people call me Major Stevens. But my folks didn’t know if they were having a boy or a girl, so they thought it would be convenient if the name was universal.” He tilted his head. “You can call me Whitney.”

Lyndy nodded.

At last Whitney seemed to regain composure. “Say, I was wonderin. It’s not really my business, but uh, how does someone like yourself come to be interested in 1950s aircraft support vehicles?”

Lyndy leaned back some, clearing her throat. After placing one leg atop the other, she straightened her outfit again for modesty. “Uh, you know …,” Lyndy sniffed, thinking of what to say. “All the moms my age are into heavy duty aircraft towing equipment.”

A smile formed on Whitney’s face, causing him to have dimples in his cheeks.

“Used to be minivans, but that was like … five years ago. Once you hit your late thirties it’s all tugs.”

“Is that so? Guess I’ve been out of the game a while.”

Lyndy couldn’t help but chuckle too, feeling herself blushing again.

“Well then, do you wanna see it?”

Lyndy nodded eagerly.


Five minutes later …

Under the amber glow of a storm lantern where moths circled endlessly, Whitney Stevens uncovered the vehicle for sale by removing a green tarp. He limped his way to the side, pulling more of the dusty tarp, rolling and folding it over to move it out of the way.

Leaning against a workbench, Lyndy noticed a ten-pound sledge. Cupping one hand, she covered Mari’s tender ears. Then lifting up the hammer, she heaved it over her shoulder like Paul Bunyun, giving Whitney a startled look. Next, she swung it mightily against the bumper of the Coleman Tug. She hadn’t even paid him money.

Despite a reverberating gong-like sound rivaling a church bell, and the heft of steel, the mark in the bumper was hardly noticeable. That’s how thick and heavy grade it was.

Mari opened her eyes as though stunned. “It’s okay,” whispered Lyndy, bouncing her knees. “DA-DA!” exclaimed Mari, then her head slumped back down against Lyndy’s chest.

“She says DA-DA a lot,” explained Lyndy whilst blinking her eyes and wedging a pinky in her ear. “Wow, that’s solid!”

“Yeah, they meant business in the fifties.”

“She’s a beauty.” Lyndy folded her arms, setting her chin on her fist. “How much can it pull?”

“I heard like eighty thousand pounds. You’re not pulling any 747s if that’s what you’re picturing. But you could easily shuffle a fleet of F/A 18s around.”

Lyndy affected a deeper, more macho tone. She was imitating the voice of men in a corvette owner’s club. “How fast does she do a quarter mile?”

“Unfortunately, she doesn’t. Not running. In my defense, I didn’t say in the ad,” Whitney answered firmly. “If she did fire up, top speed is only around 40 miles per hour.”

Lyndy stuck out her lower lip in disappointment.

“Upside is, with a day of work, I think it will run,” he added.

Lyndy locked eyes with Whitney, shooting him a fierce look to help with negotiation. “You can get it running?”

“Yes,” he replied confidently, leaning against the workbench.

Lyndy nodded. “Okay-doke. I’ll be back tomorrow.” She wet her index finger. From her wallet she pulled three one-hundred-dollar bills, offering them to Whitney.

He reached out his hand slowly, with a skeptic’s eye and a dose of caution as though she were about to play a trick.

“I’ll give you the rest when that turd is moving under its own power.”

“Sure. Makes sense.”

“One more tiny request,” voiced Lyndy, in a hushed whisper. She bobbed her head side-to-side, “got any ammo for a Beretta 92FS?”

He paused for a beat, with a serious gaze. She figured he might direct her to a legitimate gun shop, where there would be a record of her sale. But instead, he asked: “regular or hollow point?”


Lake Arrowhead, CA 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: On a first date, Rochelle Bishop was having a lovely time with a handsome, fit fellow she met at the V-P. They passed a city park with a half-court basketball setup—and conveniently a ball left abandoned by the hoop. She and the man played the game HORSE and the dude lost 5 times in a row. He never called her back.

The baby was sleeping soundly when Lyndy arrived back at the custom lake cabin—car rides will do that. By the hands on her watch, it was past 8 o-clock. In the shade of tall pines, dusk came early. One had to be alert for deer, as the twisting mountain roads leading to the cabins became dark tunnels in the woods.

Lyndy “docked” the massive Range Rover in its normal covered spot, adjacent to the vintage sixties Mustang.

She noticed first, the black rolling suitcase by the stairs to the garage. A floppy label dangled from the handle; the words Dr. K. Ellis printed neatly in the text boxes. Kyle had scribe-like penmanship, especially for someone with a doctorate by their name. From this scene, she knew he was going on a business trip. He might have said before, but frankly, the prior week had been so chaotic she hardly remembered her own name.

Lifting the baby into her arms, Lyndy backed toward the landing. Mari squirmed and shifted, irritated at having been moved. But her eyes remained shut. Flipping the light switch, Lyndy maneuvered carefully in the dim light illuminating a flight of stairs, leading to the first floor. Sometimes there were creatures here, raccoons or the occasional skunk. Thus, she’d learned to never stumble blindly onto the stairs.

The fact Kyle was going away wasn’t such a bad thing. She would have more time for her nightly business of finding Jackie’s daughter, without prompting more of his suspicions. On the other hand, she’d need to find someone to watch the baby. And she didn’t know any of the neighborhood moms well enough yet. Except maybe Helen Mason, but for that matter she didn’t exactly know where Helen lived.

She wondered if Kyle would be in a sour mood? He’d come home from work to an empty house, and no dinner waiting other than what simmered in the Crock Pot. If their roles were reversed, she imagined she’d be annoyed.

Before proceeding to the top floor, she wanted to put Maribel to bed in the nursery. She found the lower floor was darkened.

She thought of their first encounters, in her mid-teens, when she waited tables at The Vanishing Point. They rarely exchanged words. Early on he seemed more interested in Catherine. Years went by until they had anything resembling a date. Though their feelings went unspoken, the pair developed an easy, natural bond. Perhaps it was a mutual love of wilderness, blue skies and curiosity about the wonders of the Mojave Desert. It certainly wasn’t education, as Lyndy couldn’t match him there. But Lyndy held her own in the street smarts department, and she loved to read.

Maybe she was simply his type.

When they were in their twenties, he used to visit her at her desert hideaway, the trailer in foothills near Amboy. In those days, few men were bold enough to approach her residence, but somehow that lonesome field geologist had the confidence.

He had a habit of coming unannounced—not so unusual in those days before cell phones. Sometimes she’d be watering her plants, or cooking a spaghetti dinner on her two-burner stove. Other times, it was late into the night and she’d been sleeping when he arrived. She’d feel his touch on her hips, or the small of her back. She’d offer him a beer, a sip of tequila or the occasional ice cream bar from her freezer.

They’d speak of their desert adventures, filling in the gaps of when they’d last seen one another. She’d make him laugh with her silly jokes. And soon they’d undress, making love with the windows open, feeling the night breeze. Sometimes there were multiple rounds depending on how much build up preceded. Even so, he nearly always left before dawn.

Cut to the present. Not much had changed, except now two decades on, she’d just given him a beautiful child. His favorite child. She wondered if he was having an affair even now—except it wasn’t an affair—because heck, they weren’t even married. So, what was it? A breaking of some unspoken promise? Who did she have to blame, sneaking around all the time. Was it worth asking about?

Opening the door a crack, she saw Kyle standing in the kitchen, watching the small TV which hung under the cabinets. Some kind of ESPN SportsCenter broadcast.

Hearing the door creak, he turned around with a smile. “Oh hey, this turned out good,” he commented, pointing to a soup bowl on the counter. She recognized the stew she’d had simmering all day in the slow cooker. “I already ate two bowls. Beats like three-quarters of the recipes Becky knew how to make. Don’t tell her that,” he said with a laugh.

He didn’t even ask where she’d been.

“By the way, I have to fly to Boulder tomorrow. I’ll only be gone two days. Not too bad. Except I think it’s supposed to rain the whole trip.”

Perfect, Lyndy thought.

“What’s a matter?” he asked, spotting the mournful look she must have on her face. “You’re quiet. I’ve learned that’s cause for suspicion.”

“I guess … I thought you’d be mad.”

“Why?” he asked with a shrug. Approaching each other, their bodies came within inches of touching. With one arm, he gently squeezed his hand on her shoulder and pulled her close enough to kiss. “Are you hungry?”

She shook her head no.

“That’s perfect,” he answered, resting his other hand on her hip and nudging her back against the island. He brushed her cheek with his fingers, like he used to. She smiled back and felt the tension melting away. Her breathing slowed. She found herself blushing. She pulled her hair from its ponytail, forgetting everything else that was troubling their relationship. He followed as she led him to the bedroom.

Gasoline and Matches Part-7

Check out those cars parked in front of the market! -ASC

Gasoline And Matches: A Lyndy Martinez Story, Part-7

Wonder Valley, CA 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: Watching an episode of “I love Lucy”. Supposedly it’s a Saturday morning at their apartment. Ricky Ricardo is wearing a suit and tie, smoking and reading the newspaper. Lucy is wearing a dress and heels, hair done up and not one but two pearl necklaces. She’s also smoking. The doorbell buzzes. A man enters (not Fred Mertz). The visitor is wearing a suit and tie. Ricky offers him a cigarette. Now everyone in the room is smoking and dressed more formally than anyone I know.

It took a few minutes, but gradually Debbie’s heartrate and breathing returned to a resting level. Likewise, she found herself regaining composure, as well as her ability to reason. Sadly, the shocking image of Patty Sue—a bag of dry skin and nothing else—was etched in her memory bank.

She accepted the offer of a warm, expired Yoo-Hoo drink for the sole reason of getting the old guy to move away from the breakfast table slash mausoleum. It was a welcome relief when he, of his own accord, offered Debbie a guided tour of his desert wonderland. Excellent idea. It meant getting out of the stuffy cabin back into the outside environment. The hazy July air wasn’t fresh per se, but compared to whatever particles of biohazard material floated inside the cabin, it must be safer to inhale.

Stepping past the kitchen and down a short hall, Debbie Kowalski realized her pants were all but slipping off her waist. The straight-leg bottoms were bunching around her hiking boots. Perspiration on the hike over caused her to lose so much water weight at the midriff, she needed to adjust her belt buckle. But when she went to bring it in another notch, she noticed it didn’t have any holes left—she was already on the smallest one! In lieu of this, Debbie shimmied her cargo pants up higher on the hips, hoping for the best. With any luck, she might be able to fashion a belt out of a loop of rope, Jethro Bodine style.

Speaking of hillbillies, the old coot reached for yet another shotgun, one positioned by the back door and used this item as a pointer of sorts.

“I use this puppy for shooting at my Jack-rabberts,” he explained. “Keeps them chupacabras far away from my land also.” While the old fella had slaughtered the word Jackrabbit, he’d somehow pronounced the Spanish word for goat sucker using perfect diction.

Debbie rolled her eyes, wondering if this situation could get any more ridiculous.

With one hand holding her pants, the other her drink, she followed the old man out the back screen door to his ramshackle junkyard. This area was modestly shaded by a series of trellises, dying grapevines and a few barely surviving Joshua trees.

Debbie rubbed her eyes with her thumb and wrist.

“Out here’s where I keep all my good stuff,” the old man commented.

Scanning the cluttered scene, Debbie could see at least two potentially road-worthy autos. They had tires on all four rims, so that could be taken as a positive indicator. The first was some model of early Bronco, with the wrong bumpers and no windscreen. The second, a Jeep style truck coming outfitted with four different mis-matched tires, a massively cracked windshield and remnants of at least three prior paint jobs.

Taking a swig from her glass container of warm Yoo-Hoo, Debbie swallowed hard. This powdery chocolate concoction at least soothed her parched throat, though it tasted like sugar flavored mud. Yoo-Hoo was hardly a tolerable beverage cold, imagine it warm. She smacked her tongue, trying to rid herself of the taste. Then she wiped her arm across her face.

“Sir, I can see you have a J10 over there. That’s a fine truck with enough power, it might just pull my Jeep out.”

The old man made a “Baaahhhh” sound, in a scoff. “T’aint workin.”

“Why? What’s a-matter with it?”

“Even if you could get the bastard started, damn tranny will never slide in gear. You can spend all day fiddling on it, but it won’t take.”

The word transmission alone conjured up imagery of sensitive, difficult to adjust components, in a tight tolerance configuration more finicky than a Swiss chronograph. She hated working on transmissions—and when one displayed any hint of misbehaving her first stop was a specialty repair shop. Not going into gear at all was a bad sign, indicating failed parts. If parts inside were indeed broken, there weren’t likely to be replacements in this yard.

Debbie squinted, turning her head back to face the old man. “Okay, what do we know about the Bronco?”

He shook his head immediately. “Son-of-gun won’t turn over. Got a stuck cylinder or two. Motor is totally seized.”

“So bottom line it for me. Does anything here run and drive?”

“Run and drive?” he scratched at the trio of hairs on his mostly bald head. “Nope. Nothing ‘round here works,” proclaimed the old fella, almost seeming proud. “Sorry young lady.”

It was nice to be called young lady for a change.

The old man got a wistful look on his face, though it was difficult to tell where he was staring since his eyes were ghostly white. “Used to be handy with a Snap-On wrench. I mean I could fix anything from a lawn tractor to a front-loading washing machine. Worked over 25 years repairing engines for the Navy.” He sniffed, then took a big gulp of his Yoo-Hoo. “This might come as a surprise—seeing how fit I am—but I suffered a stroke couple summers back.” He grinned, showing his black tooth.

Debbie nodded, trying not to chuckle.

“Darndest thing. Ever since my stroke, I done lost my mechanical faculties. That whole part of my brain musta shriveled up and died. Can’t even hold a wrench now; wouldn’t know which end is which.”

Debbie folded her arms. “Hmmm, this is a conundrum.” She watched desert iguanas and zebra tails doing push-ups, sunning atop piles of rusty radiators, engine blocks, crankshafts and flywheels. Everything in sight seemed beyond repair.

“Over here’s where I show off my minerals,” added the old guy, changing the subject. He pointed to a row of outdoor shelves housing his rock collection, which thankfully was kept under a ramada. The shade helped, but the stagnancy of the air was the real killer. “These ones taste like spoilt milk,” he commented in his wheezy voice.

The “rock collection” consisted mainly of sedimentary and conglomerate rocks, fairly common to the Mojave Desert region. She recognized several ordinary types of limestone, travertine and sandstone, plus a few unpolished agates and opals.

Holding the whitish rock up like a golden egg, he said: “taste it for yourself.”

“Uh, no thanks,” Debbie replied.

“I said taste it,” commanded the man tersely. He lifted his shotgun, not pointing it at her, but clutching it tighter in his grip.

Debbie stuck out her tongue while bringing the rock an inch or two from her lips. Hesitating, she paused for a beat, hoping the fellow would look away. Instead, he watched her like a hawk, waiting for her to actually lick the chalky rock. Faking it wasn’t going to work.

Flicking her tongue against the rock, she caught a taste of it, bitter and salty. “Yeah.” Shaking her head and making a sour frown, Debbie groaned. “I think that might be Dolomite,” she remarked.

“Whenever I feel constipated, I come out here and lick this rock. Cures me right up.”

“Too much info,” muttered Debbie.

Pretending to be interested in rocks one could find by simply stopping your car on the interstate and walking any direction was fine. But the whole time she was wondering about the Jeep J10 truck and Ford Bronco. Perhaps there were enough spares in the yard to MacGyver a fix together. Odds were better, considering she had two vehicular options. A combination of praying and using every IQ point she had might allow her to coax one or the other into running and driving. The loco old guy was a wildcard. Would he try and stop her? Would he be grateful to her for fixing one?

Debbie leaned against a decaying air compressor, where the rounded sides made for a makeshift bench. “Sir, you wouldn’t happen to have a telephone I could use, would ya?”

“Sure, I got me one of them.”

“Oh wonderful …”

“The bugger hasn’t had a dial tone in 26 years.”

Debbie exhaled. “Or a HAM radio set? Wait, wait … let me guess. It doesn’t work.”

“Tube amplifiers blown out.”

“Right of course.” Debbie nodded. She sensed water pooling at the corner of each eye. Her lungs heaved and she felt her legs weakening. Lowering herself to a crouching position, salty tears started dripping to the soil where they quickly evaporated. She was simply too exhausted to fight an onslaught of emotions. Though she hadn’t wept openly in years, Debbie began to sob, as hopelessness swept over her in a great wave.


Redlands CA, 1990s

 Lyndy Life Observation: An engineer and mathematician stopped by the V-P diner one night for drinks. Somehow the topic of conversation turned to imaginary numbers. Catherine Cookson became convinced they were pulling her leg about the whole idea of “imaginary numbers”. As I passed by to deliver a tray of beers, I overheard her saying: “Stop it you guys, that’s silly! That’s not a thing!” No argument could convince Cathy otherwise. Remember, there were no smart phones or widely available internet in those days.

Lyndy waited until school was out of session, but before the principal departed to make her introductions. Majority of the students—ones who were already driving—peeled away sharply by 2:45. This left behind only faculty and those staying for a practice.

You know when they say being a teacher is a calling? Well, this parking structure sure indicated otherwise, judging by the quantity of German made luxury sedans. Somehow, someway the teachers at Crestwood were making bank.

Placing Maribel gently into her baby buggy, Lyndy wheeled up to the administrative office. When she asked to see the principal, she was informed Mrs. Dalton was busy. No surprise there—she knew this wouldn’t be easy. Lyndy offered to wait.

The receptionist’s desk had a brand-new, fancy Mac computer. Lyndy didn’t feel particularly welcome, but she wasn’t here to make friends either. And of course, arriving unannounced was her fault. But Lyndy had the distinct impression she was secretly being described in an instant messenger box of some sort. The receptionist would periodically look up, glance at Lyndy, then go back to typing furiously on a keyboard.

She was pretending to smile at the same time, but it was obviously fake. In the storage pocket of the buggy, Lyndy had brought Mari’s colorful toy xylophone and the accompanying steel mallet. She offered this to the baby, whose eyes went wide with excitement. Thusly, the next twenty minutes were filled with random notes: BING-BONG-BING-BONG-BOOONG.

The Spitfire remained calm, herself pretending to browse a copy of Reader’s Digest. She slipped her readers over her nose, which Lyndy knew would help her look smarter.

She became so bored she did a word search puzzle.

30 minutes later …

Amongst the notable decorative features in Principal Dalton’s office was a slotted oak paddle, displayed atop two brass supports. This thing measured three feet long. Certain laws regarding corporal punishment discouraged her from using it. At least such rules applied to public schools. How the particulars translated in a private school setting, Lyndy didn’t know.

“This is a school for gifted students,” explained Mrs. Belinda Dalton, making eye contact. She was a fiftyish age woman with a fat swash of white in her formerly blonde wave, a facelift and a banker’s disposition. She offered Lyndy a pamphlet, detailing the many benefits to enrolling one’s brilliant offspring in private school. Lyndy shoved this in her purse. “We prepare our students for entry into elite colleges and universities.”

Lyndy glanced down to 12-month-old Maribel, grinning in her blue onesie. The baby with the same curly, chestnut hair as her mother, had been chewing on her Sophie giraffe while a small bead of drool rolled off one corner of her lips. Hastily, Lyndy wiped it away with the corner of a cloth. A smile formed on Mari’s face.

“Mari’s brilliant,” Lyndy declared. With a pause and a shrug, Lyndy added, “though she’s only a year old.”

“What makes you believe that?” A tight, skeptical frown formed on Mrs. Dalton’s face. Reaching into a drawer on her desk, she yanked out a used Sesame Street baby book. The stiff pages of the book sported colorful drawings of the main characters. Flipping it to a random page, Mrs. Dalton held it up. “Who is this?” The picture had a cartoon drawing of Big Bird.

“Come on Mari, you got this,” thought Lyndy, trying to will her daughter to speak, though she’d only ever said one recognizable word before.

Mari gazed to her mother, knowing Lyndy wanted her to do something. She looked wide eyed at Principal Dalton and then at the book she was holding up. No mistaking, it was obviously a picture of Big Bird. Mari was thinking.

Lyndy pointed to the book. “Who’s that?”

“DA-DA,” answered Maribel, holding the giraffe in one hand. Then she lifted and shook her bead filled rattle with her other hand, as if to underscore her wrong answer.

Lyndy put a palm over her eyes. “Shit,” she muttered.

Principal Dalton chuckled. “Pretty sure your father isn’t Big Bird.” At least she had a sense of humor. “No that’s Big Bird. See?”

Mari, knowing she’d given the wrong answer, had a sad look. “ELMO?” she supposed, trying again. She lowered her rattle and went back to chewing on the giraffe.

“Do’h,” Lyndy muttered.

“Big Bird,” corrected Principal Dalton. “Can you say Big Bird?”

A tear started rolling down Maribel’s cheek, knowing she’d let her mother down.

“Ya know, I was bad at tests too. I think it runs in our family.” She turned to the baby. “It’s okay sweetie,” said Lyndy lovingly, reaching and pulling the baby into her arms. She held her butt with one elbow and patted Mari’s back with the other.

“I have to say Miss Martinez.” Belinda Dalton seemed surprised at her own words, “Most 12-month-olds can’t speak any words at all. There’s a small possibility this child may actually have an above average IQ.”

“That’s good to know! Cause in addition to a well-rounded education, the arts are particularly important to our family.” Lyndy sniffed.  “If possible, I’d like to meet the art teacher? Tigerlily.”

“Sorry, she already left for the day.”

“May I ask which room is hers?”

Mrs. Dalton shot Lyndy an inquisitive look, as though re-evaluating her estimation of The Spitfire.

“By the way, that’s a heck-of-a paddle ya got hanging there,” declared Lyndy.

Belinda Dalton turned in her chair, so she could gaze up at her magnificent paddle. Then she turned back to Lyndy.

“One other thing. I hear there’s a missing student,” Lyndy remarked.

“Tragic case. Seems like a runaway.”

“Sure, about that?”

Mrs. Dalton shrugged. “It’s all we know. Happened on a field trip; nothing officially associated with the school.” She began straightening a stack of papers on the corner of her desk.

Lyndy inhaled, changing both her voice and expression. Using one hand she pinched her cheeks together. “Know what that paddle reminds me of? The warden at PineGate Youth Detention camp. She used to beat us with broom sticks for sport. One night she whacked me a good 25 times with one. Not gently by any means, I’m talking full force—swinging the whole arm. Wouldn’t stop unless you went unconscious or pretended to.”

Mrs. Dalton shifted uncomfortably, clenching her jaw.

Lyndy leaned forward, lowering her voice. “Her legal name was Mabel Dixon. That’s why I believe in demons to this day. Only logical explanation I can think of, Mabel Dixon was possessed by a demon. She used to drag me by my belt loops across the floor boards, and rusty nails were sticking up where the wood slats had worn away, cause the camp was in such poor condition. I still have scars on my ass from that.”

“Sorry, that happened to you. Sounds like you’ve overcome a lot.” Mrs. Dalton looked at her watch. “I should be heading home.” She attempted to dismiss Lyndy, packing away a planner and some pens into a bag.

“I hope you’re not holding back information.”

“Nice meeting you,” said Mrs. Dalton, hastily. She’d have sworn Mrs. Dalton’s hands were quaking.

“I was just heading home myself. I’ve got shredded chicken and potato stew in my slow cooker. You know how it is. We love those crock-pot dinners on weeknights.” In her mind Lyndy was thinking, “I hope you’re not obstructing.”

Jackie’s prediction must be right. These people were instructed not to speak about Sabina’s disappearance. Which was beyond annoying. But mostly what got her blood boiling was spending any time thinking about Mabel Dixon.

Gasoline and Matches Part-5

Gasoline and Matches: A Lyndy Martinez Story, Part-5

Lyndy Life Observation: Col Rickman once claimed any marriage lasting fewer than 6 weeks shouldn’t officially count. Thus, by his math he was only married two times in his life, not 3. His short-lived marriage to a showgirl in Vegas was a non-starter.

Watching her daughter sleep soundly in her crib, Lyndy smiled to herself and sighed. Putting this child to bed hadn’t always been so trouble free. Gently, she snugged Maribel’s knitted blanket higher onto her chest, swaddling her arms without waking the precious baby. Through an inch crack in the window, Lyndy could hear a serenade of crickets—it seemed to help with the sleep issue. Before leaving the nursery, she spun the colorful mobile of bears, foxes and elk which hung over her daughter’s crib and silently observed it twirling.

Outside the glassy waters of the lake reflected a tranquil sliver of moonlight. The hills surrounding glowed with tiny amber lights, dream-like, from the hundreds of cabins tucked in the dense pine woods. Up here it certainly didn’t feel like Los Angeles was a mere two-hour drive away. On nights like these it reminded her of a holy city, say in Tibet.

The red LED clock on her nightstand read 10:07. Time to be moving.

Lyndy tip-toed to the hallway, then down two doors to the laundry room. She needed to cycle a load without disturbing Kyle or waking Mari. Luckily the newer models had a soft-chime feature, so when a load was finished it didn’t buzz like a fire drill bell.

Lyndy flipped the switch, adjusting a small knob which kept the lights on the dimmest setting. After transferring a dozen or so wet towels to the dryer unit, she widened her arms to grasp a load of Kyle’s plaid work shirts.

Attempting to be absolutely silent, while gathering up as many of the shirts as possible always meant dropping one. It landed on the linoleum floor, which was an off-white shade. Bending at the hips, Lyndy stretched to pick it up, causing her to notice something subtle yet peculiar. She might not have spotted this mystery substance if she hadn’t been anxious.

Lyndy frowned, then stepped over to the light switch to set the dial higher. This made the lighting more intense, confirming what she was seeing. It was a shimmer, from a dusting of glitter smeared across the shirt collar.

“What in the world?”

Pinching the collar and bringing it closer to her eyes for a better look, she confirmed the substance was glitter—the same flakes of color used in feminine makeup. Showgirl type glitter; Rochelle Bishop kept several containers of this at her stand, spraying it on prior to her act. Of course, Lyndy didn’t wear glitter. Nor did she imagine Kyle would be hanging around with her old pal Miss Bishop—too specific. She sniffed, thinking of what to do. Then she remembered there were envelopes in Kyle’s home office. Sliding open the desk door, she picked out the smallest size to save just a bit of the evidence. Once she’d captured the metallic flakes, she went back to finish loading the washer.


45 minutes later …

Lyndy Life Observation: Consider this, in the early 1990s Sears Tire Center advertised a sale on tires and I bought a complete set of 4 for $48, with installation. That works out to $12 a tire! And they were decent quality tires.

Jackie agreed to meet up at a 24-hour Gas-N-Go truck stop in Banning.

Sipping bad coffee from a paper cup, Lyndy paged through a well-worn San Bernardino County Thomas guide—something she did often when working at Chan’s.

Meantime Jackie pinched a silver crucifix which hung from her neck, bowing her head to pray. Compared to their previous encounters, Jackie was much quieter. Lyndy chalked this behavior up to nerves.

Finishing her prayers, Jackie looked away, gazing out the window to the busy interstate. Dark sunglasses shaded her eyes, even in the night hour. Her curtain-bangs hid the rest. A purse rested in her lap. It was hard to envision anyone engaging in such a spiritual activity to be concealing false motives. Still, Lyndy had her reservations.

Their mission tonight ought to be straightforward—simply locating a business called “Godzilla Towing” and scouting the premises. They were the ones who flat-towed Sabina’s VW out of the national park campground. It would be a pricey job, not to mention the storage fees. Not only was the name of the business menacing, but the fact police detectives couldn’t get in to see the vehicle had her worried.

Where was AAA when you needed them?

Finding their charming yellow pages ad was trivial, because it featured a cartoon of Godzilla pulling a Jeep tied to his tail. Their trucks were dinosaur green, emblazoned with the same Godzilla cartoon. The address was in 29 Palms, a smallish settlement on Highway 62, smack dab in the middle of the Mojave. The place could rival Amboy for high temps.

No one operating a legit business would base out of there. They’d picked it on purpose; to be hard to reach. A few of the high desert impound lots had garnered a reputation for being black holes, where getting a car out became damn near impossible. The mob loved these. Lyndy memorized the cross street, but she had a suspicion it wouldn’t be hard to find.

Sufficiently caffeinated, Lyndy and Jackie burst into the night air, confidently resolved to face gravel backroads, the darkness or whatever came at them. Normal folks were settling into their beds by now. Only nocturnal creatures were on the prowl. Jackie locked her car while Lyndy dabbed on lipstick, using the reflection in the truck stop windows as her mirror. Then she ducked into the driver’s seat. With a yank of the gear shifter and stomp of the gas pedal, they accelerated onto I-10, speeding along with the overnight truckers. Lyndy kept the radio low. Good stations faded in and out with fluctuations of the atmosphere.

Above the hills, bright stars filled the sky.

It took some arm twisting to convince Jackie the sixties Ford would be a smarter choice for their reconnaissance, versus the modern Porsche. Like any girl, Lyndy was a fan of sexy black Porsches, but the benefits of a less conspicuous vehicle with actual trunk space were obvious.

Lyndy glanced to her passenger a few times as they sped past wind turbines and sand hills, overtaking truck after truck. Sometimes Jackie stared at her Nokia mobile phone with its glowing screen, likely hoping for a sudden call from her daughter.

There were many questions she wanted to ask Jackie, not only about this case but her former life in Hollywood. Perhaps those would come in time. For now, The Spitfire was glad to have someone who wasn’t a chatterbox. Quiet was the second most optimal kind of passenger on the highway. The best were obviously fit young guys with good hearts and sweet personalities, but those were very hard to come by. Practically unicorns.


One hour later ….

Rickman told her he applied for a job one time as a tow-truck operator. The first thing they said to him was a warning disguised in a question: “Do you know how to fight?” This small anecdote had been running through Lyndy’s brain for the last half hour. Ever since the radio ceased getting reception.

It was a mostly uneventful drive through the Morongo Valley, then Yucca Valley and the village of Joshua Tree. She had the windows half down much of the time, to feel the air and help her think. The rumbling 390 cubic inch V8 filled her ears and as an added bonus, it didn’t overheat.

Silhouettes of many armed Joshua trees decorated the hillsides and open flats near the roadside—like scare crows in the night. Above them weathered rock formations loomed.  She’d forgotten what a charming and fanciful place Joshua Tree could be, particularly for a young adult longing to experience the natural world.

Eventually, having given up on service, Jackie shut off and put away her phone. Even with the sun setting hours ago, air temps hovered in the mid-90s. The Spitfire could tell by the bank thermometer in Joshua Tree.

They turned off highway 62 at a side-street called Mesquite Springs Road.

Godzilla’s vehicle impound lot wasn’t hard to find. She spotted it from a mile away, a fort-like structure looming in the distance, out of character with the ragged homesteads, abandoned cabins and shoestring businesses. The place was ringed with twenty yellow street lamps, like an airport parking lot—an abomination.

Lyndy lowered her window all the way, and Jackie did the same, now that they were on backroads.

Roughly a 2-acre plot of land had been fenced in, except not with customary chain link, chicken wire or even corrugated tin like so many junk yards. This one was nothing short of a medieval fortress. Before approaching what constituted an office, Lyndy took a sharp turn to circle around the block.

Instead of a skinny fence, they’d taken the time to weld sections of iron water main pipe together, basically one upright post every eight feet, connected by a straight top piece. The rust-colored pipes were ten-inch diameter. No telling how deep the uprights had been sunk in the ground—twenty feet was enough to make them virtually indestructible. Except for the gate by the office, there were no gaps in this barrier. Even worse, that was only the middle layer. In front of this, they’d somehow obtained enough concrete k-rail—same stuff used on freeways—to encompass the perimeter. Just one twenty-foot k-rail section weighed approximately 8000 pounds, which she knew from the spray paint stenciling that sometimes could be read on the ends. The k-rail was connected by iron rods, as they did on freeways.

These folks weren’t just towing cars—they were preparing for a Mad-Max style future. All they needed now was a thunder dome and Tina Turner.

After building up these two defensive layers, they’d used a bulldozer to plow a mound of soil ten feet high into a dirt berm surrounding the whole lot. This made it difficult to see in and would slow any type of ramming attack. Smart. Lastly, atop that berm, a jagged metal fence had been constructed from scrap panels of diamond plate. Then for good measure, coils of razor wire had been placed. Something about this reminded her of the Berlin Wall. Only dark forces could conceive of something this diabolical: a fortress meant for stealing cars, and charging folks to get em back.

It was quiet in the Ford as reality set in. Both had an internal monologue. She could tell Jackie was frightened, and for good reason. Lyndy was anxious too. Though she didn’t speak, Jackie was thinking: “I told you so.”

Gathering her hair in a ponytail, Lyndy poked it through a scrunchie and sighed. She noted Jackie chose to wear an all-black ensemble, including black jeans. In contrast, Lyndy was wearing short-shorts plus a white spaghetti strap tank—for warm weather comfort.

After two loops around the yard, Lyndy pointed the wheel to the Godzilla management offices, fronting the street. There a smallish one-story cinder-block building had been erected, accompanied by a macho sign. Two tow-trucks were parked in front, the green ones displaying the logo of the fire-breathing monster which famously destroyed Tokyo. Tracks in the dirt showed they drove in and out fifty times a day or more. The third vehicle was a BMW M5, newish with a botched two-tone paint job. That car looked to be a man’s beloved daily driver.

Spinning fans indicated people inside. A little sign in the window alleged they were open for business—but these places kept long hours anyway.

Lyndy stepped out into the dry wind, facing some regret at her Daisy Duke inspired clothing; especially the tight top which left her hips exposed. Before the baby, this shirt used to fit.

A bell jingled and the AC fan kicked on as Lyndy entered. No surprise, they were awake.

The gang were nocturnal, like her.

“Howdy folks,” said Lyndy, using her deepest and most serious voice.

Two of the three men inside had been playing Mario Kart on a wall mounted TV, with the Nintendo console attached beneath. They were behind a tall counter with two banana style office phones, same setup as rental car agencies. The only art on the wall should’ve been a definite warning: It was a space shuttle but the copycat Russian version, called Buran, launching into the sky with an artfully drawn Godzilla monster pawing at it, but missing.

The walls were painted lava orange—interesting choice of palate.

Jackie, with her hair in a scarf and her sunglasses on, entered a few seconds later. She filled in behind Lyndy.

Another fellow had his arms folded. He’d been watching TV until the bell rang. He was dressed as a truck operator with overalls, baggy carpenter pants and a white cotton undershirt fitting him terribly, sleeves bunching up around his obese arms.

All three men were of eastern European descent; she could tell that much. Someone hit pause on the game. All eyes were suddenly fixed on her like a proverbial stranger entering a saloon.

“Hey Sergei, I must have forgot,” spoke the tallest among them, who appeared like an entrant in an Ivan Drago look-alike contest. She could tell a bad joke was coming. “Did you order a Mexican lap dance?” He had the accent to match, and all three men laughed heartily. His chubbier compadre, presumably named Sergei, who had also been playing Mario Kart had that wheezing laugh of an older smoker. These macho dudes were huge. Minimum weight was probably 220 between them. Multiply by 3, and this worked out to at least 660 pounds of men.

Lyndy smiled but did not laugh, while shoving her thumbs into the tiny front pockets of her jean shorts. Jackie showed no emotion. Continuing to smile, Lyndy nodded, “Yeah that joke’s a knee slapper. Ya’ll hold onto your senses of humor now. God knows … life is tough.” She rocked on her heels. “Anyways …”

“What can we do for you?” asked the chubbier Sergei. Given the circumstances, his eastern European accent sounded downright comical, like someone pretending to be a vampire. But he spoke English well—especially for a Russian. The third man in the trucker overalls, just stood there chewing tobacco like a cow with a mouth full of cud. All the while he was glaring at Jackie like an absolute creep.

“We’re searching for a tourist’s vehicle that came out of the national park,” said Lyndy cheerily. “Couple weeks back.”

“What type of vehicle? We get several per week.”

Lyndy glanced at Jackie. “A Jetta.”

“It was a black VW Jetta,” Jackie confirmed.

Sergei nodded his head. “Yes. Yes. Car is here.”

“Alrighty, we’d like to have that released to us. Jackie has a court order she can show you. How much do we owe?”

“Cost will be fifty thousand.”

Lyndy squinted her eyes, exhaling. Her gaze first fell upon Sergei, who was unflinching. She moved next to the taller guy who looked like Ivan Drago. That man was leering at her chest, making no attempt to hide it. “Dollars?” she asked.

“Yes. Best we can do.”

Lyndy raised an eyebrow. She turned back to the fifty-ish Sergei across from her at the counter, who was now resting both knuckles there. His body language mimed an arrogant pawn shop operator. She blinked, checking on the faces of the other two fellows for any sort of tell that it was still joke time.

“Seriously, just give us the real price so we can get outta here,” declared Lyndy.

Sergei shrugged.

“This is an outrage!”

“How would you like to go on a date with me?” interjected the tall man, out of nowhere. He shoved both his fists into the pocket of his overalls, leaning back against the wall, grinning smugly. “For a discount. I have a fetish for moms.”

In disbelief, Lyndy rotated to face him. “Listen to me carefully. I would rather gallop on a horse all day with an ass full of hemorrhoids … and no saddle.”

The chubby driver laughed, revealing black teeth as his whole belly trembled, then continued chewing. Now it was clear why the detectives had been unable to obtain the car. This place was hardly a business. Without Sabina’s car, she wasn’t sure they had anything to sustain their investigation.

“Look, you guys don’t understand. We’re not here to play games. We’re trying to find a missing person,” pleaded Lyndy. “They could be in grave danger as we speak. We don’t have time for BS. In fact, time is of the essence. If ya’ll wanna F around with me another time that’s fine.”

Sergei smirked. “This is why I love Latin women,” he mused. He touched his chest and said: “They do not whine or cry. Instead, they have the passion inside them.” He sniffed a huge amount of snot, swallowed it, then he scolded his friend. “Do not insult our customers, Block.”

“Wouldn’t want to damage the old BBB rating, eh,” joked Lyndy. “The tall guy is named Block?” thought Lyndy. How fitting.

“Fifty thousand dollars takes time,” Jackie asserted, using one finger to lower her shades. “I would have to get a bank to authorize it.”

Sergei gestured with his elbow and hand, making an “it’s okay” motion. Then he added, “Take time. Sergei will be here.”

Lyndy’s jaw dropped. Abruptly she pivoted one-eighty, spinning her purse around and marching for the door. She put an arm around Jackie, pulling her closer.

But as they were about to exit and have a discussion, the bell jangled once again. A disheveled man in dad shoes and a sweat stained polo shirt entered. Using the front of his shirt again, the newcomer began mopping many beads of sweat which had accumulated on his forehead.

He proceeded to the counter, inquiring about a Minivan which had broken down along the highway, near the national park exit. The vehicle had been towed by Godzilla towing. “Why did you take it into the yard?” he’d asked. They didn’t have an answer for that, but over hearing, he was quoted $8000 for a ten-mile tow.

Gasoline and Matches Part-2

Don’t write on your postcards people! -ASC

Gasoline and Matches: A Lyndy Martinez Story, Part-2

Lake Arrowhead, CA 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: Rochelle Bishop had one of those 30-inch-wide natural hairdos popular in the seventies. She loved her enormous hair, but admitted it had drawbacks. Certain cars were dreadful to ride in, due to the low roofline and showers were practically impossible. One evening strolling out of Cadillac’s night club a small bat collided with her head, becoming tangled in it. Neither she nor the bat were harmed in the end, but Rochelle said she resolved it was time for a trim. This wasn’t an unheard-of occurrence back then, just ask any lady who had a giant beehive.

Kyle’s new cabin stood proudly on a bluff, with towering vistas of Lake Arrowhead. She found it challenging to describe the setting to one who’d never visited, other than comparing it to a tranquil slice of the Pacific Northwest transported to Southern California, then placed atop a mountain over the smog. The mountains were dense with vegetation in those days, mainly Douglas fir, ponderosa pine and incense cedar.

The custom cabin became the first home Lyndy lived in with solid non-tile counter tops. The kitchen was a true marvel. Those granite counters were an anthracite color, with flecks of embedded rock crystals reflecting light. The floors were real oak, textured with knots and little sanded imperfections. There were exposed beam trusses supporting the ceiling, and a tall set of picture windows with logs framing the lake.

One could get lost in that view, ever changing with the moods of the day. At daybreak or golden hour, the great room filled to the brim with inviting, natural light. Near sunset it could be distracting. It made you want to go out onto the deck and snap a picture, then rest your arms on the railing, take a breath and soak it in. You’d flick your shoes off, plop into a comfy chair and daydream. Soon you’d forget about the lasagna in the oven or the rice on the stove until a burning smell, or the beeping smoke alarm would jerk you back to reality.

She ruined many a dinner this way.

The more time one spent in this tree-house like environs, the harder it would be to return to desert living. Mornings on the lake were cool and crisp. Afternoons were sunny and warm. Colorful boats were constantly zipping from one side to the other. Throw in the change in seasons, like fall colors with mist swirling amongst the pines and it felt like another state entirely; Montana maybe. With a home like this one didn’t really need a TV. She spent many enchanting hours on that deck.

Another quirk: with the right angle of view, on the southernmost portion one could spot a corner of Rita’s mansion. You couldn’t see into Rita’s house per se, just a small piece of rock work. Enough to know it was there.

The name of Kyle’s cabin was Fall River, stenciled into a sign which hung by the door. Therein, another first. No one she grew up with lived in a house important enough to have a name. They didn’t give double-wide trailers names, nor did they give them to shitty stucco tract homes. Only custom homes had names. And Fall River was a very cool name, not because there were rivers anywhere near the cabin, but because of a place Kyle liked to fly fish.

On the lower level of the home paired with the bedrooms, the architects included a laundry nook containing both a washer and dryer. Such a welcome upgrade in convenience. Most places Lyndy lived had neither appliance, and she spent many weekend afternoons in the Amboy coin-op laundromat. But Fall River didn’t require a stack of quarters.

Course it wasn’t all an episode of Fantasy Island. With the house so new, it lacked furniture—two chairs were all they had for the table. No nightstand on either side of the bed. The clock radio rested on the floor. Worse, it also lacked any sort of baby proofing.

At 6 am, sun not yet rising on the lake, Lyndy kept busy hand-drilling small pilot holes for the plastic doo-hickey’s which restricted the lower cabinet doors from opening. Humming to music, she’d gotten into a groove. She worried most about the area under the sink, which she started on first, because here the cleaning chemicals were stored. Setting down the drill she began tightening the screws on these devices.

Using a towel to muffle the sound, she did her best not to make any unnecessary noise.

A few minutes later Lyndy was on hands and knees pushing the little plastic caps into the outlets when she heard Kyle’s footsteps on the stairs. She heard him yawn too. As his groggy head and shoulders poked above the landing, he spotted her.

Kyle was clutching the baby on his shoulder, supporting her bottom in the crook of his elbow. Mari was dressed in her favorite onesie.

“Couldn’t sleep again?” His voice sounded calm and sympathetic, even though she might’ve woken him.

“I got a few Z’s.” Lyndy sat up, still on her knees.

“What’s this?” he asked, poking at the open package on the island.

“It’s the baby proofing stuff I ordered. Remember?” Duh, she thought. What was wrong with dudes? Hadn’t he been through the process three prior times?

Kyle nodded as his expression morphed into “oh yeah.”

“In case you haven’t noticed, Mari will be crawling soon. She’s already reaching for things and putting random stuff in her mouth.”

Kyle gestured to the empty great room, near the windows. “Another thing. I was just thinking how we have no living room furniture.” He set Maribel down on the counter, in a seated position with her little legs dangling, which of course was unsafe. Lyndy quickly jumped up and scooped her off the edge.

“We need a sofa.” Reaching into the pantry cupboard, Kyle began pushing cans and bags of rice around.

“I made some coffee,” Lyndy remarked, holding the baby and walking a circle around the island.

Kyle sniffed. “Thanks.” When he turned around, he’d snagged the pancake batter mix and was holding the box on display with both hands. “How ‘bout I make breakfast?” He gestured to the sack of baby-proofing hardware, and the many lower cabinets still needing to be drilled. “After breakfast we’ll get the rest of those knocked out.”

Lyndy smiled, taking a seat with one of her legs folded under on a kitchen stool, while resting Mari’s bottom atop her thigh. Mari watched her father’s every move with attentive eyes as Lyndy gently bounced her up and down.

“I need to ask you something … and it’s … hard to picture,” Kyle stammered, in a tone balancing disappointment and understanding at the same time. “But did you call Rebecca Broom Hilda at the pool?”

Lyndy didn’t know how to answer, other than. “No. Of course I didn’t call her Broom Hilda. I mean … why? That’s preposterous!”

“So then, you didn’t call her a witch—any type of witch?”

“Technically no.”

By the letter of the law, I did not call her a witch. Lyndy held her tongue.

Stepping up to the commercial grade stove, Kyle twisted one of the big red knobs, making the natural gas his. He had his back turned as he slid his favorite cast iron pan into place, positioning it centrally over the burner. The hissing sound seemed to attract Maribel, making her even more interested. With a click of the igniter a ring of ten neat little cones of blue flame appeared, accompanied by a FWOOSH sound.

Maribel clapped her hands and said: “F-F-F-F-ire!”

Lyndy’s jaw dropped. Kyle whipped around, eyeing the baby in disbelief. He was holding a spatula which he pointed at Mari. Lyndy squeezed Mari’s sides, twisting and tilting the baby for a better look. She happened to have some spittle around her lips.

“Did she …?”

Lyndy’s wide-eyed expression was the same as Kyle’s.

Maribel glanced up first to her mother, then rotated back to face Kyle. Seeing her two parents so excited she knew she’d done something special. “Fwire!” she said again, louder and accompanied by a giggle. Then she stuck a finger in her nose. And that’s how the milestone of Maribel Ellis’s first word came to pass.


Wonder Valley, CA, 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: Col. Rickman once remarked Swanson’s Hungry-Man TV dinners should change their slogan to: “official meal of the divorced American male”. Every time I think about that I laugh.

She threw down her shovel with enough force it dug in and stayed upright in place. Backsliding two paces, Debbie Kowalski allowed her drained body to collapse against the tailgate, resting her tailbone on the bumper. With a slow turning of her wrist, she ran her arm all across her forehead, shaking loose so much sweat it drizzled to the desiccated soil. She squinted her eyes at the bright July sun, feeling cramps in her stomach.

Weariness was taking hold. She needed a plan other than continuing to dig.

Debbie always took pride in self-reliance. Some of this stemmed from experiences with her Polish grandmother, a woman who not only survived a concentration camp, she literally worked as a slave sewing new uniforms for the Nazis. Suffice it to say, Grandma Kowalski was as tough a survivor as they come—a little piece of her spirit lived inside her granddaughter Debbie.

Debbie wore men’s pants, cowboy shirts and cowboy hats. Her high intellect and strong frame allowed her to do any job a guy could do. She went on adventures alone, fixed her own cars and generally solved any problem she came upon. She’d worked as a park ranger, a soil scientist for the USGS, a geo-chemist for a petroleum company and a cartographer. She’d hiked, driven and ridden horseback into some of the most remote spots in North America. She’d camped alone in grizzly country and trekked over sand dunes in Death Valley, carrying a fifty-pound pack.

Thus, it was disheartening to admit how hopelessly stuck in soft sand she was in the heart of her old stomping grounds. This was the Mojave Desert in summer, yet she hardly recognized the landmarks. The outlines of mountains were unfamiliar. The roads didn’t match the maps, and everything was powdery sand, burro brush and smoke trees. The only animals were distant vultures, circling hundreds of feet in the air. Gazing south, the horizon itself became distorted by heat convection.

Bending down, Debbie took another peek under the car. No change after shoveling. The Cherokee rested its four tons on the middle portion of both solid axles, colloquially called the pumpkins. Everything below, including two-thirds of the wheels were buried in the aforementioned fine sand. Like the car version of Ozymandias.

She cleared her throat. She had about a quart of Gatorade and a half gallon of drinking water. Two Mountain Dews. Should’ve brought more.

In literature they called the present condition a damsel in distress. Could one still be a damsel at forty-one? Maybe. Debbie checked herself in the driver’s side mirror. Her once carrot-colored hair from her Irish side, was turning a bit silvery. Her cute freckles peppered across her face, now looked suspiciously like age spots from too much time spent outdoors. Currently, this was covered up by the strawberry flush of heat. She was sweaty, probably smelled bad.

A younger version of herself had been a bit on the chubby side, but gradually she’d been losing some of the plumpness in her cheeks and also around the middle. With every year passing, Debbie found herself becoming the one thing she never thought she’d be—a slender woman. It was a strange turn of events.

“Stop wasting time. Need a plan.”

Debbie knew she was becoming disoriented. The symptoms of heat exhaustion were piling up. She’d tried any and everything she could think of to get the 1974 Jeep Cherokee unstuck, including unloading her gear to save weight. Still too much American steel and sheet metal. Even if she had an electric winch installed it wouldn’t have mattered. For miles around there was nothing sturdy enough to winch off. She possessed exactly one shovel, but anything she tried only seemed to make the problem worse.

Cupping her hand to shade her eyes, she tilted her chin back to study the sky. Not a single cloud. All these years, defying the odds. Being the greatest outdoors woman this side of … uh … Nelly Bly. Had her luck finally run out? The matter was settled. For the first time in months, she needed another person. As much as it stung her pride, a middle-age man with tools would be useful about now.

Debbie checked her watch, noting it was 2 in the afternoon. She staggered a few paces from the car, scrambling up the side of a berm iguana stye, to the nearest high point. With binoculars pressed to her face, she scanned along the horizon. Nothing manmade. Nothing moving.

Lyndy Martinez used to say: “anyone kooky enough to like it out here was automatically suspicious.” That was solid advice, under normal circumstances. But now, she was desperate.

The valley surrounding this spot was a western basin, an area in the rain shadow of multiple inland ranges with no outlet. Hardly any vegetation coated the soil. The mountains and hills were covered in exposed boulders, some of them a black or grayish color. Like a big Japanese rock garden. On summer days the sun roasted these stones, thus in each direction the horizon became distorted by the same rippling heat waves radiated by the rocks.

She tried again, scanning side-to-side across the mountains for anything man made. Could’ve been a mirage, but she stopped panning when she happened on a squarish cabin with two windows. The windows glinted in the harsh midday sun. Finally, a miner’s cabin! Had to be. She guesstimated the distance. Two miles perhaps? Though out here, distances could be deceiving, especially on a day like this.

Stop wasting time.

Jumping up, Debbie surfed down the slope with her boots. Slowing her speed and cushioning herself, she hugged on the car door excitedly. Next, she slipped the binoculars back in her Jeep. She left the windows down and her gear exposed, but crammed the keys in her shirt pocket. Without heavy equipment nobody would’ve been able to move that vehicle. A passer-by seemed unlikely out here. Besides, she planned to return to this point at the latest tomorrow morning.

She thought about writing a note. But what would it say? In case I don’t make it, here’s who I want to give my stuff too…

Hmmm. That felt too much like inviting the worst outcome.

Reaching in the cooler, Debbie popped the top and shot-gunned a cold mountain dew. She kept thinking about Lyndy’s warning not to trust someone who lived out here. Course, maybe the cabin was abandoned anyway. After shaking out every precious sugary drop, she tossed the empty can in the back. Then Debbie slapped her hat against her thigh, removing some of the dust.

Re-positioning her hat on her head, Debbie shouldered the one remaining jug of water and started off walking.

It took longer than anticipated, nearly two whole hours to hike from the jeep to the rolling hillside she’d seen from afar. When her tongue happened to touch along the edges of her lips, she tasted salt. But as she came nearer to her goal things were looking up. The shack dwelling appeared lived in. A handful of live plants, including a row of hollyhocks near a water tank were in bloom. Great news.

The other thing catching her attention was this hermit must be a bit of a collector. Her assumption at this point was a guy. Of course, anyone who lived out here was a hoarder by the classic definition. Out of necessity one had to hoard supplies to remain self-sufficient. She couldn’t fault them for that. But this person’s property was littered with aircraft parts—not barnstormer stuff but modern parts for jets. Expensive parts. They had pieces of an F14-Tomcat, including an engine. A few yards away stood the tail section of a DC10. On the other hand, they had D5 dozer parts too, including sprockets and rollers for the tracks. Hard stuff to move which must weigh tons.

“I don’t think UPS delivers out here,” she muttered.

Hopefully with any luck they were a mechanic type, with a running diesel truck or a flatbed to help get her out of here.

Zig-zagging her way uphill through the personal junkyard, she kept watch of the windows. She detected no motion in them, not even a flicker or glint of light. Nothing to indicate someone was watching from inside. Unfortunately, that meant surprising them.

No barking dog. Would she have to knock on the screen door?

Gasoline and Matches Part-1

Gasoline and Matches: A Lyndy Martinez Story, Part-1

Anaheim, CA, 1990s

People always say when you become a new mother, your tolerance for life’s gross outs skyrockets upward. Blood, urine, throw-up, whatever is in a blackhead—you name it! And in The Spitfire’s experience, this was all true. From the happy day she found out she was pregnant with Maribel, at the age of 40, to the time of Maribel’s birth, a notable transformation occurred—not only of body, but in spirit. These same changes didn’t affect the male brain equivalently, or at least not in the case of Dr. Kyle Ellis. Kyle already had three other children, the youngest of which was eight when Lyndy gave birth. For some reason Kyle was still grossed out by poopy diapers. Nowadays, Lyndy could watch the Kintner boy get devoured by Jaws, while eating spaghetti.

These special life events never came at a convenient time and place. So, it was inevitable that baby Mari had one of her worst diaper blow-outs of all time, in the midst of a ride at Disneyland and Lyndy had to sit there with a diarrhea covered baby for what seemed like an interminable stretch until the ride came to a halt. Ironically, the ride was Winnie the Pooh, proof that God has a sense of humor.

Something had upset Maribel’s stomach terribly, though she’d eaten mostly oatmeal and half a banana. The diarrhea not only squirted up her back, along her spine, but also down the insides of her thighs. People in the beehive shaped cars behind were pinching their noses and groaning. Kyle was mortified with palms over both eyes—though he really ought to anticipate these moments. Rebecca Ellis, his first wife, was in the car in front. She was snickering.

The one silver lining was Lyndy had a diaper bag. As soon as the ride came to a stop, she jumped off carrying Maribel like a watermelon, basically a mini-stink bomb, and waddled to the nearest restroom. The Goofy character happened to be walking through at the time and he said: “Golly!” Then he did the laugh which is impossible to spell out but everyone can hear in their head.

There was a line for the women’s, because of course there was; it was the ladies room at the world’s most popular theme park after all. But as soon as the other moms witnessed the gravity of the situation, they let Lyndy cut the line. Another mom had the koala care station down and had just been finishing up a diaper change on her toddler. When she saw Lyndy coming, she whisked her kid out of the way so Lyndy could get Maribel onto the table.

Mari’s diaper bag had a pack of those disposable baby wipes, but it wasn’t near enough. Lyndy had to rush to the sinks. Mari was crying like always. This time for good reason, as she had poop all over her and probably had an upset tummy. But Lyndy was used to it, because Maribel cried a lot.

Lyndy sighed.

Rushing to the towel dispenser, she yanked the arm up and down about thirty times to obtain a good fistful. She took this wad and wet it under a sink faucet, using this in place of a washcloth to cleanse Mari’s skin.

Moments later Rebecca Ellis entered the restroom, but instead of being helpful, she’d come to watch Lyndy. Thankfully the Costco wipes helped a ton, as Lyndy tried to comfort Maribel and get her to stop crying. She hummed a lullaby, even though it was a crowded place, and she looked into the beautiful eyes of her baby, laying there on that plastic shelf. Her heart swelled with love. 

Eventually, mercifully, Mari began to cry less and Lyndy affixed a fresh, clean diaper.


That same afternoon ….

Lyndy Life Observation: On a sweltering day chasing speeders up and down the San Bernardino County interstates, 15 and 40, Deputy Keynes used to frequently get an argument along these lines: “Hey buddy, I pay your salary.” Sometimes this was accompanied by a poke at his chest and the obligatory, “ … are you just out here filling your daily quota?” In the right mood, Dale Keynes would reply with: “Hey man, if you’re not happy why don’t you fire me? You pay my salary, correct?”

The classic song Pickup Man was playing softly on the speakers. The dry SoCal heat felt amazing, and her belly had been filled by an excellent prime rib meal at The Blue Bayou, paid for by Dr. Ellis. And with their troubles mostly behind them, he had his arm around Lyndy while he smiled and played with their baby. That was during the meal. Now he’d run off somewhere to take a business call.

Lyndy was on her second margarita—wearing her favorite one-piece bathing suit—when Becky Ellis entered the scene again. She plopped down on an empty chair next to Lyndy’s pool lounger. She had one of those pina-coladas with the little pink umbrella and she was crunching the blended ice by poking the straw up and down.

On the lounger next to her, seated on a towel, was one-year-old Maribel in her tiny sun hat. Mari was smiling now, having recovered and seeming to enjoy watching the activity at the pool. Later Lyndy planned to take her daughter to the baby pool, where the water was roughly eight inches in depth and Mari could have fun splashing in the sun.

Lyndy could tell when Becky Ellis wanted to talk. She got this look on her face like she was ready to burst. She should have been watching her kids, but she’d entrusted this duty to the teenage lifeguards at the Disneyland Hotel Pool.

Becky Ellis inhaled deeply, then let the air out slowly.

Lyndy lowered her pink sunglasses.

“Whelp, I see you lost the baby weight quickly,” Becky remarked. Instead of a tone of congratulations, or as a complement, it sounded more like an insult. Like Lyndy must be on drugs. “What’s your secret?”

By the way, Becky Ellis and Lyndy were the same age, but in Becky’s eyes, Lyndy was a younger B-word who’d swooped in and stolen her husband away. This explanation couldn’t be farther from the truth.

Lyndy cleared her throat. She’d taken to imitating the great Rita Lovelace in situations like this. Rita always kept an air of dignity, even when someone was obviously there to intimidate her.

“I said what’s yer secret?” Becky repeated with a grin.

“I bought a Thigh-Master off an infomercial,” said Lyndy, matter of factly. In reality, one of the benefits of this bathing suit was its flattering nature and built-in slimming capabilities.

Becky exhaled a chuckle, knowing Lyndy was being facetious.

“Do you take anything seriously?” Becky accused.

Lyndy gazed at Maribel, brushing the gorgeous strands of hair from her forehead. It was the same shade of walnut as her mother’s and Lyndy took pride in that.

Only Becky could find reason to be in a vindictive mood during a luxury family vacation to Disneyland—literally the happiest place on Earth.

“Becky for Pete’s sake, can’t we just enjoy a family vacation?” pleaded Lyndy. Lifting one of those 4-sided emery boards from her purse, Lyndy began polishing her fingernails.

With one casual glance, Becky checked on her kids. The oldest stood atop the waterslide and was about to go down in reverse. “I need to ask you some important questions,” said Becky.

“Oh no you don’t,” argued Lyndy.

“Be honest with me Lyndy Martinez,” whispered Becky. “At any point during our marriage, was there … infidelity?” Becky whispered the word infidelity, though no one was within earshot. “And I don’t mean the physical kind. I mean emotional. Or any form of shared contact that … could lead a man to temptation.”

“Huh?”

“You know exactly what I mean.”

Lyndy looked Becky in the eyes. “We hardly said hello to each other the whole time you and Kyle were married. I promise you.”

“And when did this start?” Becky pointed to baby Maribel, as though she were evidence of some illicit affair.

Lyndy squinted her eyes. “You’re giving me a headache.”

Maribel was 12 months old. Counting back from there, another 10 months and Kyle was already divorced.

“Deep down, there had to be a part of you wishing to get pregnant? In a way, didn’t you know it would bring Kyle back to you?”

Lyndy exhaled, thinking back to that drizzly night.

Kyle Ellis had driven past the motel where he knew Lyndy lived her lonely life in an upstairs room. He’d made a case, the two of them were basically star-crossed lovers. Now they had a chance to flip that narrative around. Living in a motel, in your late thirties, working at an oil change place called Rapid-Lube did make one feel like a bit of a loser. So, seeing a familiar face—a successful one at that—she’d been in a moment of weakness. They’d had a passion filled night or two, rekindling a lifelong romance.

She’d practically given up on her dream of being a mother. She’d tossed her chance away like a couple of spades in a game of poker. Yet Lyndy didn’t know what she was missing. It was that summer season which brought Maribel Ellis into the world. Nothing could’ve prepared her for how joyful this would make Lyndy, and Kyle Ellis in turn. Mari was a symbol of the love he’d always had for Lyndy.

Lyndy gazed up at the Matterhorn, like a snow-capped beacon in the haze of a southern California afternoon. She answered Becky this way: “Why don’t you hop on your broom and fly off with your monkeys to pester somebody else.”

Becky’s back stiffened. Her face contorted in a grimace—like someone who’d had a drink thrown in their face—and she must’ve been so insulted she huffed off without any sort of goodbye.

Lyndy smacked her forehead, knowing word of this would make its way back to Dr. Ellis, and he would not be pleased.


Later that night …

The local TV news was on silent, pictures of wildfires in the mountains and a panicked scroll on the bottom fifth announcing many evacuations. One didn’t need the volume to know all heck was breaking loose in the mountains. Sometimes it felt like that’s all southern California did in the summer—burn.

Lyndy couldn’t sleep again, her mind swirling with countless worries, irrational or not. For example, what if their new cabin in Arrowhead burned down? But the fires were far away from the lake. Beside her Kyle snored, as did Maribel on her back between them. They both had a big day. Anyone on a trip to Disneyland had every right to be exhausted. She checked her watch, then sat up.

Grabbing her key card, she pulled on a dress, stuffed her feet in heels, then headed out—shutting the room door gently so as not to wake anyone. She didn’t have a rational explanation, and Kyle would obviously want to know where she was going. He also would want to know what was wrong, but as usual, Lyndy didn’t know what was wrong. She could never put in words what it meant to be restless all the time.

Downstairs Lyndy paced across the lobby. The only people up were moms like her, who were fatigued by life. But the bar had a few empty seats. Now that was a fortunate turn of events.

Kyle could be trusted with Mari, especially since she was sleeping. Right?

With piano music filling her ears, Lyndy cozied up to the hotel bar and sighed. The bartender smiled and Lyndy said: “Heineken”. Then she slid Kyle’s gold credit card across the smooth top.

Glancing to her left and right, she counted the other patrons. Pair of dudes at the other end of the bar. One couple, and a woman, seated by herself at a table by the windows. She seemed a little older.

Lyndy took a sip of beer, then studied the stranger.

By her looks she’d guessed this mature woman was middle forties in age, but slender, with a dirty blonde bob haircut and curtain bangs. It was a pricey hairdo, done only at salons. That style didn’t work for Lyndy’s curls, requiring far too much straightener, but she envied it. Or maybe it was a wig? Lyndy kept glancing her way.

She seemed like a fellow mom, but a wealthy one. Her classy outfit consisted of a green blouse, pedal pusher pants, showing her ankles and a fine pair of high-heel strap sandals. It bested Lyndy’s department store sun-dress.

“Oops.” Abruptly the stranger looked up from a dirty martini they were nursing. Lyndy was caught in the act of spying, which was embarrassing. But the stranger grinned while Lyndy sipped from her beer.

“Welcome to the party,” the woman called out.

Lyndy nodded, with a sheepish look.

Leaning back in her lounge chair, the elegant woman crossed one leg over the other. “Care to join me?” she asked, pushing her hair over one ear.

Lyndy hadn’t known she was lonely and it was abnormal for her to talk to strangers. But in this case, she welcomed the chance for an adult conversation that wasn’t with Becky or Kyle Ellis. Or the kids.

Lyndy took a seat across from the stranger, wiping her lips with the back of her hand. “Sorry for … ya know …”

The woman shook her head, meaning no explanation needed.

 “Name’s Jackie,” the lady added. Jackie pointed her toe, exercising it by doing circles, while gazing at Lyndy with attentive eyes. On her third finger, a diamond ring flashed as it caught the light. “My maiden name is Bell, but these days I go by Cordray.” Then she sipped from her glass of gin.

“Lyndy E. Martinez,” replied Lyndy with a nod. “Jackie’s a cool name.”

“Couldn’t sleep?” questioned Jackie. She had a green foil pack of Newport’s peeking out from the top of her purse, causing Lyndy to have a craving.

Lyndy shook her head in confirmation.

“What brings you to the Tragic Kingdom?”

“Oh well you know, I always wanted to meet Donald Duck in person. And my anti-depressants aren’t working anymore.”

Jackie Cordray chuckled. “You got any kids?”

“One,” Lyndy answered, trying to maintain a non-slouching pose. “She’s not going to remember this trip, but years from now when she has 30 tattoos and a bone through her nose, I can point to Dumbo and tell my daughter I held her in my lap on that ride.” Lyndy gestured to the tower elevators. “My boyfriend is currently upstairs, snoring like a moose.”

Lyndy shook her head at the circuitous path leading here; while knowing the series of nervous jokes she typically used as a smokescreen to avoid talking to people weren’t going to work on this lady. Cause Jackie was too damn cool.

“I’m not a …” Lyndy twirled her fingers to indicate whatever was running through Jackie’s mind. “We’re basically a family now. The American dream. I have self-respect.” Lyndy covered her mouth with her fist, trying unsuccessfully to disguise a burp. She wasn’t sure what she meant to justify by her declaration, maybe a latent response to Becky’s digs.

Jackie squeezed her nose at the corners of her eyes, then gazed out the windows at the glittering city lights at night stretching on forever. “I got two of em. They’re too old for this place now, or at least they act like they are.” Her words were bitter, as if many painful things were being left unsaid. Her fingers displayed two diamond rings, but no wedding band. Jackie swirled her drink, then downed the rest.

Ordinarily Lyndy wouldn’t have been so bold, but something about this mystery woman made her wonder. Jackie came from money; probably lived in Hollywood or Beverly Hills. There was practically no rationale for a person like Jackie to come here, if they didn’t have a family in tow.

“You’re looking for someone,” Lyndy surmised, taking one more sip of beer.

Jackie turned back rapidly, facing Lyndy and meeting her with a haunting gaze—the kind of look someone who’d woken up from a nightmare. “They call you The Spitfire. Is that correct?”

Lyndy nodded slowly, wondering how a person she’d just met would know that name.

“I have a confession. A friend of mine—Rita Lovelace—told me I might find you here. I didn’t know you would be up at this hour or what room you were staying in. Bumping into you was purely coincidence. But I’m glad we’re meeting this way.” Jackie leaned forward. “I have an extraordinary story to tell you.”

Valley Girl Part-21

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Valley Girl: A Lyndy Martinez Story, Part-21

Yosemite National Park, CA 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: If Aunt Rose had a superpower, it was the ability to be in a sour mood nonstop for days on end. Rose Martinez hardly ever smiled, rarely spoke an encouraging word and possessed few other likable qualities. On the other hand, her tortillas were extraordinary. I could eat ten of those in one sitting as a teenager. And I can’t say I ever ate a homemade or restaurant style tortilla which could match hers for fluffiness, texture or overall taste.

No part of Lyndy’s body wanted to do a hike—not even her hair. Her skin was itchy. Her stomach grumbled for real food. Her shoulders ached, and every now and then pinched so that her whole neck contorted into a painful clench. She just wanted to crawl into bed. Given a choice of going on a strenuous hike or balancing her checkbook, she’d choose the latter.

Unfortunately, Neil had taken Mari hostage.

“You are the toughest woman I’ve ever met,” he encouraged, but Lyndy continued to grumble without responding. She folded her arms, dragging her feet as she moved.

The trail climbed a steep ridge beyond the sawmill, into a forest of new growth conifers. Ponderosa and Jeffrey pines, hardy incense cedar and some red firs populated the landscape. The understory was a mix of shrubs, huckleberry and heather. Bluebirds flitted from the lower branches, leading them away from their spring nesting sites.

In time, the clouds lifted and sunlight began to poke through, a vibrant yellow in the late afternoon. Beads of water glistened where they adhered to pine boughs and cones, reflecting the natural world into twisted spheres, making the trees sparkle as if they had tiny crystal ornaments attached. And though she wasn’t exactly thrilled, Lyndy began dwelling less on her misery, seeing things she’d not anticipated. Even the blades of grass and petals of a daisy held fresh dew.

The trees began to sway as a breeze picked up. She felt the chill of high altitude and it gave the skin on her arms goosebumps. It must have been a mile and a half in, judging by the passing of time, when they paused for a break.

There, Neil offered up baby Maribel.

At the time Lyndy was busy catching her breath, her palms flat upon her thighs.

“I’ll give you her, if you promise to keep walking behind me,” Neil warned.

Lyndy looked up to meet his piercing gaze. In reality, it wasn’t much of a choice. If she tried to flee, he could easily outrun her. He had longer legs, was better rested and knew the terrain. She’d never be able to outpace him back to the staging area. Exhaling, Lyndy reached out her arms, taking back her baby. Mari squirmed and Lyndy tucked her into the baby Bjorn, like a kangaroo pouch. The baby felt restless, not liking the motion and probably wanting to be fed.

Neil didn’t pause much longer. He turned to scramble higher.

After a few more minutes of trekking the slope began leveling off, and they reached a mesa-like flat zone. Here there was an opening in the canopy, fewer trees overall. She’d been watching her feet, concentrating on not stumbling, but when Lyndy next lifted her gaze, she was overcome by a child-like wonder. A rush of pure delight made her forget her troubles. Across a small stream stood a tree-trunk as big around as a grain silo.

The orangish bark with massive ridges and roots like elephant trunks, helped it seem even more fairy tale like. The settlers would’ve had a heck of a time describing this to their cousins back home. Sure, sure, just one tree branch as big around as a piano!

Lyndy leaned back to take in the scale, straining to spot the crown of the colossal tree. As she twisted her body, she noticed there were more giants towering in the distance. By a quick counting they numbered in the dozens. All she could do was marvel at the sight.

“That’s a sequoia!” she exclaimed, stating the obvious.

Mari’s eyes were doing that googly-eyed baby thing, trying to make sense of her surroundings. But Lyndy would’ve sworn the girl had a smile. In all her days, she’d not seen anything as wondrous. Lyndy looked to Neil. “How old are these trees?”

“This one? Easily, over 3000 years.”

Lyndy remembered the sawmill. “Wait, why would they leave these?”

“Two reasons. Firstly, the wood tends to be brittle for this species, and isn’t as good for building as you might think. But the other reason, is they recognized how special these trees are. They’ve been growing here since the last ice age. The men knew if they felled all the giant sequoias there would be none left for future generations to be in awe of, like us. They wisely set these aside, while logging the lesser trees.”

Neil beckoned Lyndy to hop the creek and make their way into the grove.

Twenty yards deep into the clearing he dropped to a seated position, like someone enjoying a picnic. Patting the soft grasses and pine needles, he pointed out the small wild daisies.

Hesitating, Lyndy paced a circle, afraid to sit down. But after a while, seeing how comfy he looked and that he wasn’t sinking into mud, she settled on a spot to take a rest. She folded her legs in a meditative pose. She glanced to Neil Conner, not deviating from her pouting seriousness. He gazed back making apologetic eyes. She wasn’t falling for that. She couldn’t shake her apprehensive thoughts, what might be happening in the valley.

After the exchange of looks, lacking words to express themselves they leaned back, resting their heads flat on a bed of pine needles. They gazed skyward together—baby and all—to the blueness and the unknown. Listening to the creaking of the upper canopy in the wind, watching the sky with its hints of high cirrus, breathing the cool air, Lyndy lost herself.  She felt Maribel gazing up too.

“You know what I was thinking about,” said Lyndy. “On the hike up.”

“What?”

“I was thinkin bout my mom. How I wasted so much time and energy being angry at her for abandoning me and my brother, leaving us with Aunt Rose and disappearing.” Lyndy sniffed. “Lately it occurs to me, she was what, 23 or 24 years old when she did that? What the heck did she know about life or parenting, or commitment? I didn’t have a kid til I was 40, and look at me. I don’t really know what I’m doing do I?”

Neil chuckled.

“You were right about something,” Lyndy managed.

“Bout what?”

“This is a nice spot,” Lyndy agreed. She sighed, contemplating for a good minute or two the sounds of nature—letting her heart soar.

She wasn’t sure whether she dozed off or not, but she’d been lost in a daydream when the sounds of twigs snapping, and the approach of heavy footsteps jostled them both to alertness. She sat up in a blink.

“DON’T MOVE AN INCH!” someone commanded. Gazing to the direction of the noise, she saw the profile of Ranger Brandt. He had his revolver trained on Neil.

Gradually, Neil raised both his hands, showing he wasn’t clutching a weapon.

Brandt’s eyes darted, seemingly aware of a partner nearby, covering him. It was Ruby, emerging from behind one of the enormous tree trunks. He’d been tracking too.

“Lyndy!” Neil complained, like a little kid who’d been caught stealing candy. He eyed her angrily. “How could you?”

“I didn’t do anything,” she argued.

“You didn’t lead them here?” Neil accused.

“No, I didn’t, I swear.” Should have thought of that though, she reasoned. Not like this little walk in the park was going to turn her onto his cause anyway.

“She didn’t lead us here,” Brandt confirmed. “We had a tracker on Kristen’s sedan.” Sheriff Ruby removed a set of handcuffs from his belt. “Get down on your stomach Mr. Conner,” he commanded to Neil.

Lyndy stood up, brushing off her ruined dress. “Watch out, he’s got a cattle prod. If he tries anything I can help take him.” Lyndy pushed back her hair. “What about the hotel? Is it still standing?” she wondered aloud.

“Of course,” answered Ranger Brandt.

Lyndy looked over at Neil, who had a guilty expression as he tilted his body forward. “Not for much longer,” he mouthed.

Next Lyndy locked eyes with Ranger Brandt. “We gotta move if want to save it.”


Coconino County, AZ 2010s

Lyndy Life Observation: One afternoon at CBB I walk in to find Mr. Chan laughing like a hyena at the TV, almost falling out of his chair. It was unusual for him to genuinely laugh, especially during business hours. Upon investigating, a looney tunes cartoon was playing, the one where Daffy Duck and Bugs Bunny are arguing whether it’s “duck season” or “rabbit season”. That is a classic.

It started innocently. Fred Simmons met Lyndy in the waiting area of the Flagstaff airport. Outside with the sun going down, lights in the parking lot were just blinking on. Lyndy had a big smile on her face and so did he. He had one overnight bag, his dapper suit jacket on and under his arm a box of genuine Mustang parts.

Holding the weathered box out—with its original faded label on the side—he presented it proudly as he rushed to meet her. “This is it!”

“My Ford is in my friend’s hangar. I brought it with me so we can work on it here.”

He’d not thought to question how Lyndy managed to drive onto the airport grounds, whether with a permit or some supposed friend working there. With the kind of woman she was, she presumably had connections. Of course, other cars like the fastback were parked on airport grounds, alongside the private hangars. Most of them were rich people who owned Cessnas.

Lyndy pushed through a beefy gate, which said authorized personnel only. He followed her into the closed area with the private hangars. Once there, she beckoned him into a side door for one of many steel buildings. The lights were out. Peering into the darkened room for any signs of the Ford, he felt two strangers—strong men—grabbing his arms and lifting his feet off the ground. A bag slipped over his head, and before he could yell or manage much of a resistance, he felt himself being rolled into something stiff like carpet.

The next thing Fred Simmons knew, he awoke in a wooden chair with his head face down on a tabletop. Restraints were tightly wrapped around his wrists and ankles, securing him to the chair. Straining to separate them was no use, as he discovered they’d been bound with zip ties.

The room was dim and quiet but he sensed he was not alone. An odor of ancient dust and juniper smoke permeated, tickling his nostrils. His eyes strained to focus in the darkness and he could see five outlines, statue-like figures seated across the room, opposite him on the floor. Their backs were resting against the stone wall, meditative style. He wished for it to be a dream, but it most certainly was not.

The floors were composed of something like packed clay.

Fred soon deduced he was sitting in an underground kiva, the coals at the center still smoldering and glowing orange. The other occupants were dressed in robes, but the curious thing is that each wore an elaborately constructed mask—ceremonial masks. The mask enclosed their heads, blocking their faces completely. As his eyes adjusted to the light of the coals, he could see they were canines: Two of the masks were larger, wolves with lighter whitish fur tones, whiskers and fuzzy ears. A pair of the figures were coyotes. The figure all the way to the right belonged to a smaller person, and the head was a fox with orangish fur.

“This is highly illegal,” declared Fred, lacking a cleverer response. “You all can’t do this. You can’t hold someone against their will. You’re in big trouble.”

No one responded. The fox-masked person on the far right stood up slowly, as if their joints were old and achy. The fox approached him, walking like a woman. Something like fresh creosote had been smeared across the coals, and this mixture began to crackle and pop, emitting a new powerful new aroma. At the same time a soothing, spacey Enya type music began to play from an unseen speaker.

“Don’t be afraid,” said the fox. The voice he recognized, had to be Lyndy Martinez. “We are gathered here today for an unusual but important reason. We are here to honor the legacy of an extraordinary woman, one great admirer of indigenous peoples and culture. In so doing, you will be taking a short quiz.”

“If this is about Gillian’s inheritance …”

The fox put up a hand. “Excuse me I’m talking,” she scolded.

“You guys can’t go around kidnapping people. I will report this.” But Fred’s mind began reeling with a vision of how exactly to report this unusual incident to law enforcement. The description alone would be hard to prove. On top of this, it was Lyndy whom he needed to strongarm into signing the affidavit—not the other way around. He could hardly accuse her of blackmail. “Where am I?” Fred demanded.

The fox turned its head gradually to the left and right. “A kiva,” she answered. The other canines hardly moved an inch, but he knew they were living. They watched him motionless, and it was unsettling not being able to read the reactions of a human face. Their wolf and coyote masks were unchanging. Every once in a while, he swore he could see their eyelids blinking above their snouts, in tiny holes cutout for the eyes.

“Well, what do you want? I already offered you a third share of the fortune. Do you want more? You’ll never be able to spend it all. That’s about 300 million.”

“We are gathered here to honor the spirit of Rita Lovelace. A woman, who I promise never did anything for the money if it meant being dishonest.”

“How is this an honor?” Fred strained against the plastic bindings. He squirmed in the chair, but it made him feel weak knowing he was trapped. He felt himself sweating.

“We are taking a quiz,” answered the fox.

“Okay. Fine. What kind of test?”

The fox cleared her throat, having paused halfway across the room. “Today’s quiz will be titled: How well do I know Rita Lovelace?” Sweetness infused her tone; in ways he’d not remembered. Lyndy Martinez, in spite of her reputation and some years of smoking, still had a youthfulness in her voice. “Don’t worry, it’s multiple choice. You won’t have to conjure anything from scratch.”

“Fine. Fine. I’ll take the quiz. What does it prove though?”

“It proves whether you were wedded to Rita Lovelace. Like you say. If that’s true, you’ve got nothing to worry about.”

Fred exhaled, hating himself for having been tricked. He hadn’t thought she’d do this, as Lyndy seemed so earnest when she met him at the airport. “I suppose if I get the answers wrong, you won’t be signing the affidavit.”

The fox didn’t directly answer, instead offering, “Everyone on our panel has a copy of the quiz, with correct responses marked. That way there’s no funny business.” She unfolded a sheet of stationary, something a wedding invitation might come printed on. The fox cleared her throat. “As we know Rita was born in Phoenix, her father a businessman and her mother a model. What famous woman was Rita named after? A. Rita Moreno. B. Rita Coolidge. C. Rita Rudner. D. Rita Hayworth.”

Fred sniffed, trying not to sneeze at the dust and drifting creosote smoke. “Some of those are too young,” he muttered. “Gotta be Rita Hayworth.”

“That’s right,” answered the fox excitedly. “Cha-Ching.”

“This is stupid,” Fred complained, straining again to adjust his stance, as his frame was bent sharply against the table. He felt his eyes tearing up from stress. “Let’s hurry up.”

The Enya music was maddening in this environment.

“Chompin at the bit, I see. We’ll move on.” The fox cleared her throat again, circling around the fire pit and pacing to the left side of the kiva. She stared down at her slip of paper, though she must’ve known what was coming in advance. “Rita had a lifelong passion for horsemanship, along with western culture. She was a talented rider and raised foals on her ranch in Tucson. What was the name of Rita’s all-time favorite horse. I’ll make it easy, cause Rita loved mares. A. Akrivia. B. Shimmer. C. Nightfall. D. Sunset.

Fred exhaled sharply. He shook his head, then let it droop on the table.

“I’ll give you another hint. There’s a grave marker with this mare’s name chiseled upon it, where she spread her ashes.”

“Fine. It’s B. She liked weird names.”

The fox shook her head plainly. “That’s wrong.”

“I don’t care. Give me another one. We never talked about horses. It would’ve been too painful.”

“For the record it was Nightfall. Okay. Moving on. Rita had a good head for business, owning several art galleries among her other ventures. She valued one quality in an employee above any other. A. Loyalty. B. Results. C. Ability to generate profit. D. Intelligence.”

“I dunno, loyalty.”

“That’s an important one, the root of many future problems.”

“What do you mean?”

“I promise you; in no way did Rita value loyalty.” The fox paced to the opposite side of the firepit, moving away from the drifting smoke.  “Moving on. What annoying habit did Rita have after drinking to excess? A. Removing her clothes. B. Throwing up. C. Fighting. D. Dancing with strangers.”

“This is stupid.”

“What’s your answer?”

“Oh, I don’t know. She didn’t drink with me; she’d given it up. I guess B. Throwing up.”

Without words, the fox shook her head. “It’s A.”

“This is so stupid,” Fred repeated, impatience boiling over. “You’re missing out on the big picture. There’s nearly a billion dollars at stake and you would rather play games?”

“This last question is so important it’s worth two points, like a lightning round. You’re still in the game and can tie it up, if you get this right. At a fancy outdoor wedding in Malibu, Lyndy Martinez and Rita Lovelace had their last and final falling out. Lyndy was expelled from the wedding, fired from her job at Lovelace Corp. and Rita cruelly cutoff all communication. They never exchanged one single word again. What embarrassing incident at the wedding precipitated this last straw event: A. Lyndy made out with a stranger in a catering tent. B. Lyndy was drunk and ranting about politics. C. Lyndy pants’ed the groom. D. All of the above.”

A sound of girlish laugher filled the kiva, one of the coyotes breaking character. The high voice meant the coyote was another female, but younger. Perhaps both the coyotes were female, Fred reasoned.

The wolves looked at her and she quickly regained composure.

“What’s yer answer?” demanded the fox.

Fred inhaled nervously.

“D. All of the above,” said Fred.

“Oh my god,” lamented the fox, dropping her arms to her sides and shaking her snout. “How poor is your opinion? Admittedly, Miss Martinez had been drinking that day. And this led to teasing, as she and the groom knew one another. For some reason, not having any foresight, Lyndy immaturely decided to prank the groom. Rita witnessed it—leading to the most awkward wedding moment ever. If she could go back in time, it’s the one thing Lyndy would change.”

The same coyote began to cover a laugh, but still did not remove its mask.

“So, what. I got it wrong? You didn’t do all those things?”

“Very wrong. In fact, you only got one question correct overall.”

“So, what now? You’re not signing? You’re crazy!” Fred seethed in anger. “For Pete sake, all this cause I didn’t know you pants’ed a dude at a wedding? Big deal. Rita over-reacted.”

Both coyotes stood up, moving toward the fox. They linked arms, standing on either side of the fox. “There isn’t anyone in the Lovelace firm who didn’t later know that happened. It was absolutely legendary, obviously a bad decision. We were getting wine at the reception, surrounded by a dozen people. Lyndy tried to apologize over and over. But Rita wouldn’t have it … Rita shouldn’t have cut all ties and never spoken to her for the rest of their lives. After all the times Lyndy saved her and all the experiences they shared as best friends. Rita was wrong too. Rita did not value loyalty. Everyone knew that.”

“I’m sorry Rita did that to you,” grumbled Fred.

“No, you’re not.”

“Well, what now?” Fred scanned the room. A chill ran through him. “What now? What about the money? We need to lock up that deal.” He tried to kick the table with his knees, but they were bound too tightly. He struggled to free himself, letting out a groan when this final act of defiance failed.

The fox touched fingers upon the fur along her snout, then patted them in a circle below her ears. Fred wondered whether Lyndy were about to remove the mask. But she did not.

“I’ve been told, I’m getting a facial,” answered the fox.

Fred came to later that day on a bench, in front of the airport.

Valley Girl Part-20

Valley Girl: A Lyndy Martinez Story, Part-20

[Hi Everyone, Lyndy says have a very Merry Christmas / Happy Holidays! Thanks for reading. –ASC]

Coconino County, AZ, 2010s

Lyndy Life Observation: Telephone answering machines used to have actual cassette tapes, and one could change the greeting by swapping these tapes out (if you were born after 2000 this doesn’t make a lick of sense). While cleaning out my storage unit, I found a box chock full of these old cassettes belonging to my 1980s answering machine—like a time capsule. For fun, I put one in a player to see what random messages might still be on it. I soon hear the intoxicated voice of Catherine Cookson, slurring speech: “Lyn! Lyn, … you won’t believe what just happened to me. I got trespassed out of a See’s Candies for eating too many samples! Hahahaha!”

Miss Thurgood, in a pensive mood, popped the tab on a Michelob Ultra while listening closely to Lyndy’s Santa Barbara saga. Sipping beer and occasionally chewing on a fingernail, she focused her attentive green eyes on The Spitfire the whole time.

Lyndy Martinez told of her encounter with Mr. Fred Simmons, how she met his strange daughter named Gillian, the enormous pile of money at stake, and the fact there was more than a passing resemblance between the fragile girl in the rental and the late Rita.

In truth it was the longest stretch Lyndy could ever recall holding Rhonda’s focus, as the businesswoman had one of those millennial attention spans. Like Maribel, Rhonda could ignore a room full of people in a loud nightclub, if only an Apple device were present.

Lyndy explained how uncomfortable it was to seek out help, as it wasn’t a very Lyndy Martinez thing to do. Admittedly, asking advice from someone half your age felt humbling.

At last, Rhonda crushed out the can. Extending one of her bare ankles and crossing it over the other, she rotated her frame to face the TV. There, a generic cable news channel with anchors like puppets, showed scenes of a hurricane battering Florida. Near the bottom of the screen, a dizzying scroll of stock quotes looped interminably.

“Hmmm,” was all Rhonda said at first. Being this close, Lyndy noted Rhonda had one of her eyebrows pierced, a feature she’d nearly mistaken for a fishhook injury.

Lyndy exhaled, anxiously lacing her fingers, pondering whether the decision to use up an Ace asking Rhonda for help had been fruitless. I mean, why should she care anyway?

But Rhonda opened her mouth again, questioning, “If Gillian actually is the living heir of Rita Lovelace, would you want her to have her inheritance?”

“Of course,” answered Lyndy.

“But if not?”

“You mean if they’re con artists? Well, Rita despised con artists. She hated any kind of swindler. She’d go out of her way to expose them and on occasion ….”

Lyndy trailed off, thinking of a few situations in particular.

Rhonda leaned forward with a grin.

“Hopefully the statute of limitations has expired,” mumbled Lyndy.

“The more I hear, the more I think I would have enjoyed meeting Rita.”

Lyndy nodded in the affirmative. “You would. I was telling Gillian, Rita’s nickname used to be Rita-the-Rocket cause she had so much energy and was unrelenting.”

Rhonda shrugged on her wrap, stuffing her feet into pink flip-flop sandals. She paced to the accordion doors, wide open to the sunny day, revealing a grand view of sandstone cliffs. Those were the same reddish cliffs Wesley Powell might’ve slept under, on his expeditions down the river, long before the reservoir.

“If only there were a way to match the DNA of Gillian to the DNA of the Lovelace clan,” lamented Lyndy. She sipped from her cold, fizzy can.

“Miss Martinez, you ever watch one of those cheesy rom-coms where it’s an American tourist who stumbles into the love of their life overseas? Eventually they have to snag a green card to sneak their partner back into the US. Hilarity ensues.”

Lyndy’s eyes narrowed. “Yeah.”

“Immigration asks probing questions, like uh, what side of the bed do each of you sleep on? Or what brand of toothpaste does your partner use?” Rhonda whipped around with a gleam in her eye. “You mentioned you lived with Miss Lovelace. Did I hear that correctly?”

Lyndy chuckled thinking about it. “Yes, yes, the odd couple.” Her head bobbed side to side. “Heck, we shared the same bed a few times—always platonically, cause sometimes we’d get a hotel suite with only one king bed. We weren’t ya know, into each other.”

“I get it,” replied Rhonda, “I didn’t think the latter. But still, it means you have intimate knowledge. You could make a quiz, one this Simmons fellow should be able to easily pass assuming he’s telling the truth.”

A hunky male bodyguard without a shirt entered the room, his hawk-like gaze fixed on Rhonda. Without a word he moved the kitchen, to hover over Lyndy.

Rhonda locked eyes with him. “Let’s try,” she remarked. “What side of the bed did Rita sleep on?”

Lyndy recalled many a hotel suite in Vegas, shoving their way through a crowded lobby as fans trying desperately to snap pictures with Miss Lovelace, pleading her for an autograph. Touching finger to thumb with both her hands, making the shape of a square, Lyndy replied: “If you’re facing the bed—I can picture her lying curled up against a pillow—it was the side nearest the windows. A fancy glass ash tray on the nightstand. I never asked, but I bet her choice of side related to a lifelong phobia of fire. She believed in the worst-case, a hook and ladder truck would come and she could escape out a window. Whatever side faced the door, it would’ve been me.”

Rhonda giggled at her own idea: “We should make it like a multiple-choice Cosmo quiz: You know, what would my Spice Girl name be?”

Lyndy exhaled, tilting her head back against the padded sofa cushion and shutting her eyes to think. “Right. Right. I like it. So then, we need better questions—something Fred would’ve known being married to the most adventuresome fashion model who ever lived.”


Yosemite National Park, 1990s

Lyndy Life Observation: Maribel had an Alvin and the Chipmunks sing the hits CD (not sure where it came from, but she received a lot of quirky gifts from Kyle’s extended family). We used to play that at home or when driving Kyle’s car, which had a CD player unit in the console. Unfortunately, on a long trip to Arrowhead, after being requested for the umpteenth time, it was mysteriously “lost” (out the window) and never seen again. Wink!

The winding, rocky trail up to the sawmill almost proved too much for Kristen’s aging sedan. The little car huffed and puffed for oxygen, threatening to stall after each switchback. Copious ruts tried their best to swallow the skinny highway tires, causing the engine to bottom out on its oil pan. Good thing Lyndy was adept at working a manual clutch, as she might not have made it.

The crumbling ruins were concealed in thick pine woods. The irony being, back in the day this entire ridgeline would’ve been felled clear by the axes of lumberjacks. The imposing mill structure once stood surrounded in nothing but depressing stumps. Eight decades or so of intervening years allowed forest to overtake the area yet again, albeit the fast-growing tree species and thus with less overall diversity.

Signs along road warned of a restricted area, that park service employees were the only ones allowed to pass. However, Lyndy encountered no gates.

Happening upon a graded pullout where others had parked, Lyndy stopped the car with the engine running. She checked her surroundings.

From this vantage one got an initial view of the 3-story barn-like buildings, clinging to the steep grade on crumbling foundation blocks. Another set of signs warned hikers to keep out of the historic structures.

Lyndy knew it was the place, having gotten directions from Sarah Palmer.

Turning uphill, switching off the ignition, The Spitfire set her sights on the mill. In certain ways it resembled a haunted house: weathered side panels, narrow busted out 8-slat windows, a dock at one end and a rusting crane type mechanism for loading trucks on the other. Colonies of bats probably slept upside down in the eaves.

At the time Sarah described this place, the gruff lady had been hyperventilating, making it hard to answer questions. Lyndy put a finger against her lips, uttering the SHHHH sound. It wasn’t so much she wanted Sarah to be quiet, as she wanted Sarah to breath and stop freaking out over pain. Being so bent out of shape put you at risk of shock.

“I want you to tell me how to get to Charlie,” demanded Lyndy calmly.

Through a series of heaves, Sarah muttered, “The Sawmill.”

Thus, directions brought her to this secluded hideout.

Glancing down, she checked on the baby. Surprisingly, Mari had been sleeping in her sling. Lyndy reached down, adjusting the straps to gently secure the load tighter against her torso.

Stepping from the driver’s seat, Lyndy paused briefly to lace Kyle’s boots. She considered yet again whether to hide the baby. It had been her original plan, perhaps to lock her safe under the hatch. The weather was mild here, a hazy afternoon and she would’ve been okay to breathe.

But that just didn’t make sense. They were in this together.

Lyndy already deduced what type of man would be waiting for her. Though deranged, he’d proven he wouldn’t hurt Maribel. He’d hurt a mom if necessary, that was clear as day. Not a baby. Sometimes you just know someone—call it intuition.

A gravel trail led north from the wide switchback, up an embankment where steps had once been carved, but degraded and washed away by time. Lyndy felt the elevation, as her heart was pounding. Old half-bricks scattered the hillside where they’d come loose from the foundation. As if to foreshadow the purpose, a discarded sawblade with bent teeth could be spotted two-thirds buried in dirt. The rusty steel disk had been over 4 feet in diameter judging by the part sticking up.

Lyndy didn’t bother looking in a mirror. She’d been too busy thinking what to say to him.

Her mind felt cloudy, but in her gut Lyndy was angry. The renegades and bank robbers who caught her eye when she was young were old fashioned outlaws. They couldn’t convince her to join them. Easy choice. There were plenty of good ones out there too: Ted Crawford, Nash Spotted-Wolf, Dale, Rickman, enough to capture her heart. Kyle of course. This man was different. One of those passionate idealists—persuasive too.

Lyndy entered through the western side, where a doorframe canted at twenty degrees, and the door itself had long since been stolen or discarded. The weathered trim surrounding the entrance was all coated in fuzzy green moss, temping her to brush against it with her fingers. She half expected bats, or hoot owls to come flooding out like a Scooby Doo cartoon.

 Chan would’ve advised not to enter here at all; a young Lyndy might’ve agreed. There was a time and place for caution. Strands of spider webs hung from the ceiling, adhering to every rafter. Inside it reeked of sawdust, sharp enough one could taste it on their tongue. This dust and sap mixture tarred up, filling every corner and crack.

Moving forward not only were the floors decomposing, they were sinking, folding into valleys wherever joists rotted away. The room was mostly shadows, but it quickly dropped off revealing a larger, deeper void. Indeed, the ground entry was on the second floor, and the taller first floor had been carved into the hillside, shored up with brick. This was the main work space. It took time for her eyes to adjust. A dusty warning sign, with peeling paint was still barely legible: An accident brought you into this world; don’t let one take you out! Sawmill dudes at peak humor.

Ancient equipment, driven by belts and electric motors, sat motionless in haunting vestiges. Even a half-hewn sugar pine log, 8 foot in diameter, sat stuck in the largest circular blade she’d ever seen. Balls of sap the size of grapefruit adhered to the log, turning hard and dark like chunks of real amber. It was eerie to think, one day the whistle blew, the men quit work and never came back.

Maribel murmured, expressing concern.

“I know,” whispered Lyndy. “It’s okay.”

Lyndy treaded along the catwalks at the perimeter of the building, peering down upon the main floors. At the same time she had to watch her feet, to avoid stepping into a gap or upon a board which might breakaway like a rice cake.

Her eyes scanned the room, lingering upon the shadows, gaging if each figure-like object were indeed a person. She heard the rustling of something living and the creaking of a chain. Her eyes were drawn to the source of the sound, a boom like a crane for hoisting heavy logs, erected from the brick wall over the main floor. There straddling upon the tip of the boom, a human silhouette. He might’ve been mistaken for a block and tackle at first, or other wiry apparatus, were it not for the feet clad in hiking boots.

His arms and legs gripped the sides of the wooden beam like a watchful leopard. He’d been waiting, listening to her footsteps, and the baby.

“Your people tried to kill me,” Lyndy voiced angrily.

She heard him heaving a sigh, but it was too dim to see facial features. She simply knew it was Neil Conner.

“You’re wrong though. They weren’t trying to kill you. They’re afraid of you.” He raised both arms to get her attention. “Half of em are laid up in a hospital bed, the rest have quit on me.” It was the soothing, baritone voice of Neil.

“You’re like one of those people who say sharks are more afraid of you than you are of them.”

Neil chuckled. “You should have minded your own business and not answered someone else’s phone. You’d still be living your best life. This didn’t have to happen.”

“Damn right it didn’t! That’s why you need to let go of this maniacal plan and leave me and my family alone.”

“I want you to go on a hike with me first,” Neil argued. “Promise it’ll be worth your time.”

“I’m not in the mood anymore for hiking,” Lyndy replied, with anger infused words. She smoothed the wisps of Mari’s hair. “I’ve had a very bad experience these past two days. I’m exhausted. I have a headache. Even my hair hurts. But I have the code, so that’s that.”

“Your boyfriend is boring,” commented Neil. “And hair is dead. It’ can’t hurt.”

“Don’t lecture me. I get enough of that from Kyle.”

Scooting off the side, Neil dropped into a hang on the end of the boom, then let himself descend to the main floor with a THUNK. He landed on his feet, and the decaying boards cushioned his landing.

“How can you stand that guy? He’s such a tool!”

“Kyle’s not a tool. He’s earned my respect. I like boring men.”

“Why?”

“They’re predictable.”

Neil sighed again. “Come on, just go on this hike and you’ll never have to see me again if you don’t want.”

Maribel whimpered again.

“I see you’ve found a way to bond,” Neil added.

“No thanks to you,” Lyndy snapped back.

Neil shrugged. With lightning speed he climbed a ladder, one hidden from view unless you knew it was there. He arrived atop the catwalk, grinning.

“What do you want?”

“I want you to take a walk with me,” Neil repeated, as he rushed toward her. “Why do you have to be so stubborn?” Neil had been concealing something against his arm.

Lyndy heard the crackle of electricity, but had little time to react before a tingle pierced her spine, then rippled through her body causing every muscle to quiver and contract. Paralyzed, but regrettably conscious, her limp body flopped backward on the rotting floorboards. A poof of dust rose in the air.

With breath knocked out of her lungs, Lyndy gasped and Neil easily scooped the baby from Lyndy’s weakened grip. The pain from the cattle prod hurt like the sting of a scorpion, making it feel as though even her fingernails might pop off.

Mari started wailing.

Rubbing her eyes, hoping to clear her vision of stars and floating spiral patterns, Lyndy coughed out the words: “You are such an immature prick!” She tried sitting up, reaching out her arms for her baby, but her swings were wildly off.

Mari continued crying “WAAAAH! WAH!”, even as Neil cradled her, trying to calm her. In his right arm, he continued to grip the charged cattle prod.

“Great! Look what you did!” Lyndy lectured, wiping her forearm across her lip. “She was calm up till now. God that thing hurts like a ….”

“I’ll give you Mari back once we take a walk.”

“You should give her back now,” shouted Lyndy, pushing to her feet with her palm. This placed excess pressure on her bad shoulder. Wincing, she stumbled onto her tailbone again. With the baby crying in his left arm, Neil threatened Lyndy with the poker. One squeeze and it emitted the BRZZZT sound, hurting their eyes with a blinding blue lightning streak. Even the air smelled of ozone.

Though her will was strong, reflexively Lyndy shied away. A part of her wanted to rip that stupid thing from his hand, push him over the railing. Except they were on a catwalk, and if he lost grip of the baby the results would be disastrous. Or worse, he might accidently turn that thing on Maribel.

“For God sake! What is so important I have to see right now?” Lyndy demanded. Clawing for the wall behind, Lyndy pulled herself to a standing position, keeping her gaze fixed on the man holding her baby. “Fine I’ll go for a stupid walk with you,” Lyndy huffed. “But I’m never giving you the code.”

Neil smiled, cradling Mari again and trying to sooth her. “I don’t need it. I figured it out. Took much longer than it should have, wasting tons of precious time, but I figured it out.”

“So, it was a bomb? Now its armed?” For the moment, Lyndy’s concern had shifted from herself to whatever plan this wannabe madman hatched. A half-dozen crazy scenarios began to play out in her mind. Her thoughts went to Kyle. Maybe he hadn’t cleared out like she’d warned him? Things had been quite a daze when they parted. Obviously, he’d be searching for her, but in that case he might’ve setup shop in the hotel. She’d not heard any news, being without a phone or a radio. Anything could’ve happened.

Neil’s gaze shifted from the baby’s face to Lyndy. Her back was pressed against the wall. She looked down at the baby. He continued to hold the prod in a raised position, like golf club he was about to thunk her with.

“I armed it,” Neil said in a whisper.

“So then, the hotel is …” Lyndy trailed off.  

Neil nodded. “Rubble,” he answered.